BLAH BLAH BLAH.

i had this weird & fanciful yet sad at the same time dream last night. so i woke up this morning having this disheartened and crestfallen feeling. blah. idk what i am talking now. i just ya.

and sometimes i can't help it but i really hate everyone. oh well, chin up like what desmond say.

it's god damn 7.22am and i am not yet asleep. bammy has already reached school, momsie has woken up so has cynthia and pops and everyone else in the family. and here i am, lying on my bed, typing this entry. i am having serious insomnia like omg seriously.

anyway, yesterday was alright. i is love the singing session. went over to sinema to discuss after dinner and wow, i can't wait!

impromptu meetup with the primary school mates again and i really love bedok, like really really. every part of new upper changi road and bedok south road is so you know, close to my heart. anyway, i really hope arthur would choose the right friends, not that he will read this, oh well.

anyway, i just wanna say, i really love my mummy. downrightfromthebottomofmyheart, ilovemymummy.

goodnight people. i love you too.

i feel like a fool sometimes.

friends and their influence is really a scary thing. i've seen this naive and sweet boy turned into a scary bastard. sigh. i really hope you will be like how i first knew you, my friend.

i think alan rudge's is really a bitch and that he should really keep his comments to himself. i have never hated any lecturer like how i hate him now.

and surprisingly julian was really nice.

frankly speaking, not having to think of someone constantly at the back of the mind is really a nice/good feeling ((:

"you used to be very gungho now you zzz"

idk why but this sentence made me think a lot bout myself, bout how much i've changed over the years. oh well, i'm old now, blah.

"campers are the reflection of their instructors"

& this sentence is the first thing jason tan taught me when i joined sealsport and it's stuck with me forever. 4 or 5 official camp that i did for them, all of them got best group. HURHUR. like what i told him, i've skipped the basic and went to the top too fast. which is not a good thing for myself ):

how i wish i could quit fa and join the hug kour media team for camp ):

the good thing is that we've started discussing for that mtv job. yay! gonna be cool for our portfolio and pocket! hee.

this is all i could upload. blogger is a lil screwed up nowadays.
idk if it's my connection.

WE IS OFFICIALLY, FINALLY DONE WITH THE SUBMISSION!

i is want to post picture but idk why blogger is a little screwed up nao. blah.

we is done. just left with submitting the stuffs to G.O later on.
thank god we double check our stuffs.
there were so many last minute must-do rendering and exporting.
major post-submission celebration later on. WEE!

i've got so much to say, so much to tell you, so much to share with you. but i know, once i start, the more i say, everything would change again.

tell me how much longer do i need to do this.

thank you jacky, the big brother ((:

you know, i am feeling very uneasy now. i don't know what's install in my future, it seems so bleak.

i am gonna miss schooling days very much. i know i left school for 3 months for internship but that's just so different. because warren was with me and that i knew i would return to school after 3 months time. but right now, everything gonna end soon. i won't have a place to go to, to slack, to meet up friends, to do work or simply to hang out. i wont be seeing be seeing my friends so very often anymore. this is a very difficult feeling for me to handle. i've spent so much time in school, so much time with the people, leaving this place gonna be hard, really.

and what about the future? i am not prepared to work nor entering this industry. i don't even know will i even get a stable job. i want to work and earn the money myself. stop taking allowance from my family and maybe, even to be able to give my parents some money.

i will really miss the school & the people.

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talking to mark and jacen makes me feel like crying. like really. i was telling jacen, thursday, we must sit at the end of the class, side by side again. we start from it, we end like it too )):

that's a very saddening thought.

when can i stop this heartache?

Mark and Jacen just ate my tortise food. HAHA
FYP makes you mad.

time waits for no one.

vday dinner was good. the day ended early.

and 15th started off good. i like that chat. it makes me go back to how it was like before everything else started. i hope it stays that way, future cadet officer, because i think that friendship we had was pretty awesome.

buddy had an accident on the 13th night and on the 14th, he happily went to darren's to bake cookies. tell me about the "power of love" and that coming from him, sounds totally wrong. LOL.

when the next batch is having their fyp and complaining, i am only going to say two words to them; "fyp only". because i've heard it countless time since i started complaining to people like jacky and ye xiang.

i've yet to complete watching GA season 4. there're 3 more episodes.

oh, and i can feel gastric coming, damn.

This morning is a time for you! Concentrate on your own goals--firm up ongoing projects or begin new ones. Work alone, if possible, because the encouragement or advice of others is not really necessary now. Today is your chance to be yourself for yourself! Do not forget to include some physical activity that you will enjoy. A friend in need--perhaps someone moving--could use your help this afternoon. You may be called upon to lend a helping hand. You may find that you had more in common with this friend than you thought. It may happen that you remember things from your youth and the two of you talk over old times or view school pictures. You draw emotional sustenance and a sense of security from your ideals and friends.

and this morning yumi and i were just talking about the past 2 years. how awesome.

hell yeah time flies. i love you wife. let me be the 3rd party between you and him. we can still share partner like how we shared warren yes? haha.

and somehow the birds chirping outside the windows reminded me of the internship days where i had to wake up early in the morning. i miss the smell of morning shooting gallery. now i wondered, how did i survive those early mornings. should i go back?

i hope buddy would not call me early later just to ask me about cookie baking stuffs.

goodnight everyone.

p/s thanks josh for the lovely text.

happy vday people.

i dont like.

12th Feb
School to edit, lunch in canteen, updates from chrystal, fayvo angko's meeting, back to edit, met Buddy, home, dinner at home, watch tv with mum, Bernard came to fetch me, Bedok to fetch Buddy and Huili, Seven Eleven for drinks, Big Splash to slack, 4 hours, primary school, secondary school, current, future, past, NSman road march and saw Brandon and someone who I can't recongnize because it was too dark, ah ta ji(?), sent Huii and Buddy home, sent me home, changed hamsters' bedding, first time bathing them with water.

eventful boring day.

we are planning to go Yvonne's place on the 20th for post submission party. 20 places, first come first serve. tina wants bintan trip too! wee.

i must say i will definitely miss going to school after submission. Buddy asked me what am i going to do after i graduate. i really don't know )):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC!

anyway baking cookies with the brothers later on at Bernard's!
it's gonna be a saturday valantine with ain yumi fiq and war!

Whoa. What a night. Disappointment plus a whole load of fury.

One week extension seem like a bonus for all of us but no, it seem more like a something that came in at the wrong time and broke our momentum. I haven't done much work over the weekend and my cuts are extremely weird now. things just ain't right. sighs.

Time now is 4.17am
(this gonna be a nothing-to-do-so-blog-in-detail entry)

Went to school in the afternoon to get equipments, have lunch then Wesley sent me home.
Went out with Cynthia, Grandma and Sister-in-law for awhile.
Met Sheena, bought KT's present, donuts then head down to Central Starbucks and I slept there.
Met the rest at Brewerks, had dinner and slacked even more.
Saw Jason Tan.
Went to meet Bernard, Buddy, Darren, Helmi and another guy at Cine for Defiance.
Quite a not bad show maybe because I kinda like History but didn't have a chance to study it (I was top student for Humanities in Sec4)?

Art direction was not that fantastic though.
There's this scene where there were smoke in the background because they were doing field cooking but guess what? The smoke was coming downwards.
Then there was another scene where they pass around this HOT pot. They were drinking from the wooden ladle and one of the guy were blowing the soup but they were passing the pot with naked hands. I almost laughed.
THEN there was this conti error. There was this shooting scene, I clearly saw this old man got shot but in the next few shots, he was alive!

But overall it was 6.5/10 since it was a true story.

After that was Yassin at Serangoon and yes, Novem is still alive because I finally saw her!
Bernard sent Buddy home then me.

Okay. It's shoot later at 7pm.
Timecheck, 5.47am (I went to bathe halfway writing this).
NIGHTS.

Documentation down. am doing major changes to my edit. i kinda like how it is now ((:

i really hope that everyone can tide through whatever problems they are facing now.
carmen, ashley, ain and whoever else that matters.
just 10 more days to go, hang on girls.

I fall in love too easily these days.

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji