(Oct 24, 2008)
Because I really miss those times we sat in the canteen and yak non-stop for hours.
Because I really miss hanging out with you even if we don't talk.
Because I really miss us doing camps together.
Because you were there for me when I broke down and cried.
Because you always makes me feel better at the end of the day.
Because you are my first friend.
Because I really, really miss you.
But whenever I think of you, whenever I start to miss you, I feel sad.
I feel sad whenever I ignore you even though there is this strong urge to just talk to you and tell you how much I miss you. I feel sad because I don't know why but I just can't bring myself to talk. Because I feel sad I am not important to you anymore. And I am sad because I am not the one you look for and talk to and hang out with anymore.
But does all this matters now? That things are not the same anymore? Because although I know I have a lot of friends but none of them beats having you around.
And I really miss you, myfirstfriend.