(Jul 31, 2008)
I AM UPDATING!
These days, I forgot how to even talk properly to people. I'm always feeling so angry, and I don't know, maybe emo? But yet, I have to agree with Carmen that it's almost impossible to be angry with Warren around and that's a pretty good thing because I am going to see him for the next 76 days. Internship is so-so. Can't wait to get out of the current department. I am sewing queen. I can sew. I have a hidden talent. The photography guys downstairs are *drools*. Only one in fact. Warren told me his name today. And that art director whom I shared the office with now is *doubledrools* I'm glad that everyone is doing good in their respective company.
Other than that, days are left like what it is like way before. I cared and bothered too much and now, oh well, whatever it is, at the end of the day, nobody is always happy and my face doesn't spell friendly at all. Sometimes I just get so frustrated and irritated. Haa, irony, the person who disappoints you the most is the one who is closest to you, no?
Sleeping at 10pm everyday is the shiokest thing to do. But my eye bags and dark rings are getting worse -.- Anyway, happy HUNGRY HOST FESTIVAL to all.
And he is still my source of comfort.
here, there or not at all doesn't matter anymore.
These days, I forgot how to even talk properly to people. I'm always feeling so angry, and I don't know, maybe emo? But yet, I have to agree with Carmen that it's almost impossible to be angry with Warren around and that's a pretty good thing because I am going to see him for the next 76 days. Internship is so-so. Can't wait to get out of the current department. I am sewing queen. I can sew. I have a hidden talent. The photography guys downstairs are *drools*. Only one in fact. Warren told me his name today. And that art director whom I shared the office with now is *doubledrools* I'm glad that everyone is doing good in their respective company.
Other than that, days are left like what it is like way before. I cared and bothered too much and now, oh well, whatever it is, at the end of the day, nobody is always happy and my face doesn't spell friendly at all. Sometimes I just get so frustrated and irritated. Haa, irony, the person who disappoints you the most is the one who is closest to you, no?
Sleeping at 10pm everyday is the shiokest thing to do. But my eye bags and dark rings are getting worse -.- Anyway, happy HUNGRY HOST FESTIVAL to all.
And he is still my source of comfort.
here, there or not at all doesn't matter anymore.
(Jul 30, 2008)
I saw two girls playing thumb war in the bus today. And that reminded me of you.
On a happy side note,
From Jiahui's blog
*Stares at Angel and Jiahui*
BETTER COME/GO TOGETHER!
Uh yes, I am crazy over him (: but, he quite fair uh. Can reflect light already -.-
On a happy side note,
From Jiahui's blog
*Stares at Angel and Jiahui*
BETTER COME/GO TOGETHER!
Uh yes, I am crazy over him (: but, he quite fair uh. Can reflect light already -.-
(Jul 29, 2008)
HE is coming! HE IS COMING!
(Jul 28, 2008)
My only source of comfort.
()
i think i've exhausted my feelings.
(Jul 27, 2008)
Froggy showed me this,
and it is indeed very touching.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
- Marilyn Monroe
and it is indeed very touching.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
- Marilyn Monroe
(Jul 26, 2008)
I am waiting for my hair to dry.
MOI chalet:
Pizzas. Lamb chop. Coke. Green Tea. Sprite. Never ending supply of hard liquor, beer & wine. Hot dogs. Crab meat. Charcoal. Chicken wings. Charade. Imitating the lecturers. Ghost stories. A Wedding Affair feat Jac & wife. More Green Tea. Indian Poker. Drinking Game. Laugh and talked damn loudly. "come chalet to sleep uh?". STINK LIKE SHIT shit smell from the guy who is shitting a lot these days. Pool side chatting. Games. Bat flying. Faces in the sky. Screen writing haven't start. Pack up. Washed ugly cups. HOME.
Those flying tonight and tomorrow, please take careeee and MUCH LOVES.
Yeah. And Dark Knight wasn't as fantastic as I expected it to be. I need to watch it again to catch the underlying message and subtext/plot. But Heath Ledger is really awesome.
OKAY I am going to sleep now and shall wake up later to do my screen writing.
yet another heartbreak. i've lost the bet.
MOI chalet:
Pizzas. Lamb chop. Coke. Green Tea. Sprite. Never ending supply of hard liquor, beer & wine. Hot dogs. Crab meat. Charcoal. Chicken wings. Charade. Imitating the lecturers. Ghost stories. A Wedding Affair feat Jac & wife. More Green Tea. Indian Poker. Drinking Game. Laugh and talked damn loudly. "come chalet to sleep uh?". STINK LIKE SHIT shit smell from the guy who is shitting a lot these days. Pool side chatting. Games. Bat flying. Faces in the sky. Screen writing haven't start. Pack up. Washed ugly cups. HOME.
Those flying tonight and tomorrow, please take careeee and MUCH LOVES.
Yeah. And Dark Knight wasn't as fantastic as I expected it to be. I need to watch it again to catch the underlying message and subtext/plot. But Heath Ledger is really awesome.
OKAY I am going to sleep now and shall wake up later to do my screen writing.
yet another heartbreak. i've lost the bet.
(Jul 25, 2008)
my knight tonight.
(Jul 24, 2008)
Submitted motion graphic this afternoon, YAY!
I am done with the APEL 3 portfolio, YAY!
Warren is going SG for interview tmr which means I might have a company during SIP, YAY!
Syafiq might be going down to SG for interview too which means I might have another company during SIP, YAY!
MOI chalet is tomorrow, which means FUN, FUN and MORE FUN. Jac is bringing Whisky down, Warren is bringing Vodka down and Yvonne might be bringing more Vodkas, YAY!
I am watching Dark Knight tomorrow, YAY!
I can JAM till siao tonight, YAY!
you, yay.
Thank you Nick for the music ((:
But I have yet to start on my Screenwriting so this is kinda bad. BLEAHS.
Anyway, crashed acting class today and it was freaking funny.
"wake up, sweetheart" the gay living inside Pumpkin did a good job! haha.
GX's and Yumi's was very witty and STONE (:
Hope is for the hopeless.
()
HEH
I want more JAM!
(Jul 23, 2008)
YES AH. MOTION GRAPHIC IS DONE AND TMR'S PRESENTATION IS CANCELED.
I can Youtube tonight without feeling guilty already. Jiayou all who are still motion graphic-ing (Ain, Mark, etc).
And yes, I am still as cheena as yesterday. I want more JAM on my bread please ((:
I miss you, I still do.
(Jul 22, 2008)
Oh yeah I did it in class just now. Now I am so satisfied and I can stare at my wallpaper forever.
()
<3s
()
HE IS STILL VERY AWESOME AND MESMERIZING. I spent like hours watching his video clips online. Goodness gracious. His voice is simple godlike.
&
I don't intend to eat it though.
(Jul 21, 2008)
i may not say it anymore but i hope you still feel it wherever you are.
-
Distances is a good excuse to be oblivious. You don't have to answer for your words or actions.
Rubbing temples helps you fight back tears. My temples are red and swollen for yet another night. Fighting back tears is easier than being emotionally tortured trust me.
Sidenote, I am glad that the rest of Pham felt happy about that little gathering and reunion dinner we had. This Friday's MOI seniors chalet so let's all go and have some more fun before internship starts.
(Jul 20, 2008)
burnt and scarred.
(Jul 19, 2008)
DAPHAM outing finally and it's FULL FORCE!
The GUYS,
The GIRLS,
We wanted to catch The Dark Knight but we left school too late thus there wasn't enough seats for the 9 of us. So we bumped around town and slacked at Starbucks where we learnt Malay and Indian from Ain and Shahul respectively. Yumi joined us then we headed to Clarke Quay to meet Sotong.
Had to wait for bout an hour because we were early and our reservation is at 8.30pm. And thus, we spent an hour worth of cam-whoring. 200+ pictures please. Crazy shitasslaughters and whats not. Dinner was great. In the end some went to shit and I can't stop burping. Ask Yumi, Warren and Froggy about my burp. They will tell you how much they prefer the sewage.
And then it was home with the east side khakis. We came up with our very own superhero story and our superhero power! I am Mushiage.
Overall, everything was total love. Really enjoyed myself. Internship is coming and everyone is going to different company except for Pumpkin who might be in the same as mine! So tonight was triple the fun, triple the love and triple the stress because I had only just started on my MoGraph. Nonetheless, I would say it's worth it. Whats more to ask for the clique of friends who survived with you for since year one, block one, day one?
Jacky's shoot later on. I want to go to the library book fair!
HI TECK CHIN! NO MORE EMO POST (:
The GUYS,
The GIRLS,
We wanted to catch The Dark Knight but we left school too late thus there wasn't enough seats for the 9 of us. So we bumped around town and slacked at Starbucks where we learnt Malay and Indian from Ain and Shahul respectively. Yumi joined us then we headed to Clarke Quay to meet Sotong.
Had to wait for bout an hour because we were early and our reservation is at 8.30pm. And thus, we spent an hour worth of cam-whoring. 200+ pictures please. Crazy shitasslaughters and whats not. Dinner was great. In the end some went to shit and I can't stop burping. Ask Yumi, Warren and Froggy about my burp. They will tell you how much they prefer the sewage.
And then it was home with the east side khakis. We came up with our very own superhero story and our superhero power! I am Mushiage.
Overall, everything was total love. Really enjoyed myself. Internship is coming and everyone is going to different company except for Pumpkin who might be in the same as mine! So tonight was triple the fun, triple the love and triple the stress because I had only just started on my MoGraph. Nonetheless, I would say it's worth it. Whats more to ask for the clique of friends who survived with you for since year one, block one, day one?
Jacky's shoot later on. I want to go to the library book fair!
HI TECK CHIN! NO MORE EMO POST (:
(Jul 16, 2008)
because i am fiona, i don't need to talk to anybody for i am good by myself.
i need no friends nor any shoulder to lean on to.
i need no hugs for they don't mean anything other than physical contact.
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i had nothing left unsaid when you left. perhaps that was my only regret. sometimes, when things are said too much, they lost their meaning. i really miss you ): but a promise made, is a promise to fulfill.
-
work still come first. till then.
()
le falto
(Jul 15, 2008)
I love that small catch up we had after Screen Writing this late morning. We gossiped and laugh and shouted in the canteen (yah, nuisance). Can't wait for this Friday to see DA PHAM again (:
The Motion Graphic class has been infected by the ITIWN virus. I like Motion Graphic class. Small class, lots of jokes, laughters and songs.
(click to enlarge)
Joshua Tan's idea. Because I was telling them recently people kept coming to me as if I am some friendly girl-next-door. Oh well, they said I got friendly face especially when I smile/laugh. Nothing bad about it like what Nick said but (meh) I don't like entertaining people anymore because fake people are everywhere and I can't stand it anymore.
I should learn to love people around me. Soon, soon.
Passing thought...
The Motion Graphic class has been infected by the ITIWN virus. I like Motion Graphic class. Small class, lots of jokes, laughters and songs.
(click to enlarge)
Joshua Tan's idea. Because I was telling them recently people kept coming to me as if I am some friendly girl-next-door. Oh well, they said I got friendly face especially when I smile/laugh. Nothing bad about it like what Nick said but (meh) I don't like entertaining people anymore because fake people are everywhere and I can't stand it anymore.
I should learn to love people around me. Soon, soon.
Passing thought...
()
Hi over there, the pathetic stalker.
(Jul 14, 2008)
pretty irritating. i see you everywhere today.
still working on my motion graphic. die. tomorrow's submission.
BLEAH :P
()
This is why I love Grey's Anatomy. I don't know how they did it man. Oh well, this guy went into a coma and will never wake up again ):
Meow. I miss you tonight ):
()
Some withdrawal symptoms for smokers who wants to quit.
1. Anger and Mood Swings
Anger is part of the quitting process. You don’t have to have a reason to feel that way, you just do. Accept it, vent it safely. Deal with the irritating situation by dealing with your feelings rather than suppressing them. Say what’s on your mind without blowing your stack. Anger openly expressed or kept inside creates tension which may create the need for a cigarette. Reducing the tension will reduce your desire for a cigarette. Discuss your anger with your buddy. Take a walk. Do deep breathing exercises.
2. Boredom
Try new things. Keep your hands and mind busy (write a letter, do dishes, cook, paint, do carpentry, knit, garden, sew). Run some errands, get caught up on jobs you haven’t had time to do, or go see a movie. If you have to stay in one place, have a book/crossword puzzles/deck of cards handy.
3. Constipation, gas, stomach pain
Constipation is caused by intestinal movement decreases for a brief period. It will normally last for several weeks.
Drink plenty of liquids (6-8 glasses of water daily); add roughage to diet (fruits, vegetables, whole grain cereals, bran); go for walks.
4. Feeling cooped up
Feeling of being cooped up are normal. You miss your old friend your cigarettes who used to go everywhere you used to go. Go for a short walk, go swimming, bike riding. Keep yourself physically and mentally busy.
5. Cough, dry throat/mouth, nasal drip
This is caused from your body getting rid of mucous which has blocked airways and restricted breathing. Drink plenty of fluids; drink cold water, fruit juice, tea; use cough drops, gum or hard candy.
6. Craving for a cigarette
Withdrawal from nicotine, a strongly addictive drug. It is most frequent the first 2 or 3 days. Occasionally, it can occur for months or for years. Wait out the urge; they only last a few minutes. Wait until it passes (in general 3 to 5 minutes). Get busy. Start another activity.Think of something else. Focus on your work.Drink some water, chew some gum or eat sugarless candy.Eat something (e.g., some fruit). Breathe deeply several times. Do a relaxing exercise. Brush your teeth. Tell yourself the symptoms will disappear in a few days.
7. Depression & Despair
Find a substitute reward to smoking. Deal with your emotions. Call your support buddy. Use positive self-talk. Don’t cut yourself down; build yourself up. Don’t allow a self-defeatist attitude (I’m no good, I can’t do this). This can lead to a decreased sense of control and a drop in self-esteem. Think of success, not failure! It’s normal to feel sad, angry, or confused in the first few smoke-free weeks. These feelings will pass but If the depression does not appear to be going away, take it seriously and consult your doctor.
8. Dizziness
Your body is getting extra oxygen like it hasn't seen for a long time. Get fresh air, go for a walk, change positions slowly. It will last several days and will go away.
9. Fatigue
Nicotine is a stimulant. 2 to 4 weeks. Get extra sleep and more exercise; take naps; don’t push yourself. If you feel tired when you first wake up, do some moderate exercises and take a cool shower. Drink 6-8 glasses of water per day to speed up the healing process.
10. Frustration
Take a walk. Do deep breathing exercises. Talk to your support buddy. Think of the positive reasons for quitting and the rewards you will be able to achieve. Take some time by yourself. Do a favorite hobby.
11. Headaches
Take a warm bath or shower. Try relaxation or meditation techniques. Do more physical activities. Cut down on coffee and cola drinks.
12. Increase on Appetite
Craving for a cigarette can be confused with hunger pangs or a simple craving for oral stimulation. For years, your mouth was stimulated every time a cigarette landed between your lips. This has now been removed. Up to several weeks What can I do?
Drink water or low-calorie liquids. Be prepared with low-calorie and low-fat snacks (celery, pretzels, carrots, popcorn, melba toast); chew a toothpick, chew gum, munch on raw vegetables.
13. Insomnia
Nicotine affects brain wave function. This can influence sleep patterns and dreams about smoking are common. 1 week Take a hot, relaxing bath, avoid caffeine (coffee, tea, pop) after 6:00pm Try relaxing at bedtime with a glass of warm milk, deep breathing and relaxation techniques. Work on a hobby.
14. Irritability, grouchy, tense
The body is craving for nicotine. Tobacco smokers are in a chronic state of nervous stimulation. Many of the symptoms quitters experience are the result of the nervous system returning to normal. It normally last for 1-2 weeks. Deep breathe, take walks, exercise, use relaxation techniques, chew nicotine gum, cut down on coffee and pop.
15. Lack of concentration
The body needs time to adjust to not having constant stimulation from nicotine. A few weeks Change activities, get some fresh air, exercise, deep breathe, listen to music, watch TV, do more physical activity, cut down on coffee and cola, plan workload accordingly, avoid situations that may trigger your desire to smoke.
16. Loneliness
Cigarettes are seen by many people as a close friend. Call a real friend. Go for a walk or a drive. Sing, pray.
17. Night Time awakenings
Cigarettes are seen by many people as a close friend. Call a real friend. Go for a walk or a drive. Sing, pray.
18. Restlessness
Exercise. Work on a hobby. Catch up on your chores. Do some extra jobs at work.
19. Tightness in the chest
It is probably due to tension created by the body’s need for nicotine; may be caused by sore muscles from coughing. Part of the recovery process may be the lung’s attempt to remove mucus and tar. The normal mucus transport system will start to reactivate itself, which can initially cause coughing. It will last a few days. Deep breathing and relaxation techniques. Be patient; wait it out! Your body wants to return to normal.
20. Weight gain
Weight gain from quitting smoking is very normal for most people and you can expect to put on 5-10 pounds over the period of several months. Remember that this extra weight gain is a lot better than continuing to smoke!
20 WHOLE LOT OF THEM. Good luck quitters.
1-6, 9, 10, 12-16. Don't blame me people because I am showing signs. I am quitting. So, help me by being more patient.
1. Anger and Mood Swings
Anger is part of the quitting process. You don’t have to have a reason to feel that way, you just do. Accept it, vent it safely. Deal with the irritating situation by dealing with your feelings rather than suppressing them. Say what’s on your mind without blowing your stack. Anger openly expressed or kept inside creates tension which may create the need for a cigarette. Reducing the tension will reduce your desire for a cigarette. Discuss your anger with your buddy. Take a walk. Do deep breathing exercises.
2. Boredom
Try new things. Keep your hands and mind busy (write a letter, do dishes, cook, paint, do carpentry, knit, garden, sew). Run some errands, get caught up on jobs you haven’t had time to do, or go see a movie. If you have to stay in one place, have a book/crossword puzzles/deck of cards handy.
3. Constipation, gas, stomach pain
Constipation is caused by intestinal movement decreases for a brief period. It will normally last for several weeks.
Drink plenty of liquids (6-8 glasses of water daily); add roughage to diet (fruits, vegetables, whole grain cereals, bran); go for walks.
4. Feeling cooped up
Feeling of being cooped up are normal. You miss your old friend your cigarettes who used to go everywhere you used to go. Go for a short walk, go swimming, bike riding. Keep yourself physically and mentally busy.
5. Cough, dry throat/mouth, nasal drip
This is caused from your body getting rid of mucous which has blocked airways and restricted breathing. Drink plenty of fluids; drink cold water, fruit juice, tea; use cough drops, gum or hard candy.
6. Craving for a cigarette
Withdrawal from nicotine, a strongly addictive drug. It is most frequent the first 2 or 3 days. Occasionally, it can occur for months or for years. Wait out the urge; they only last a few minutes. Wait until it passes (in general 3 to 5 minutes). Get busy. Start another activity.Think of something else. Focus on your work.Drink some water, chew some gum or eat sugarless candy.Eat something (e.g., some fruit). Breathe deeply several times. Do a relaxing exercise. Brush your teeth. Tell yourself the symptoms will disappear in a few days.
7. Depression & Despair
Find a substitute reward to smoking. Deal with your emotions. Call your support buddy. Use positive self-talk. Don’t cut yourself down; build yourself up. Don’t allow a self-defeatist attitude (I’m no good, I can’t do this). This can lead to a decreased sense of control and a drop in self-esteem. Think of success, not failure! It’s normal to feel sad, angry, or confused in the first few smoke-free weeks. These feelings will pass but If the depression does not appear to be going away, take it seriously and consult your doctor.
8. Dizziness
Your body is getting extra oxygen like it hasn't seen for a long time. Get fresh air, go for a walk, change positions slowly. It will last several days and will go away.
9. Fatigue
Nicotine is a stimulant. 2 to 4 weeks. Get extra sleep and more exercise; take naps; don’t push yourself. If you feel tired when you first wake up, do some moderate exercises and take a cool shower. Drink 6-8 glasses of water per day to speed up the healing process.
10. Frustration
Take a walk. Do deep breathing exercises. Talk to your support buddy. Think of the positive reasons for quitting and the rewards you will be able to achieve. Take some time by yourself. Do a favorite hobby.
11. Headaches
Take a warm bath or shower. Try relaxation or meditation techniques. Do more physical activities. Cut down on coffee and cola drinks.
12. Increase on Appetite
Craving for a cigarette can be confused with hunger pangs or a simple craving for oral stimulation. For years, your mouth was stimulated every time a cigarette landed between your lips. This has now been removed. Up to several weeks What can I do?
Drink water or low-calorie liquids. Be prepared with low-calorie and low-fat snacks (celery, pretzels, carrots, popcorn, melba toast); chew a toothpick, chew gum, munch on raw vegetables.
13. Insomnia
Nicotine affects brain wave function. This can influence sleep patterns and dreams about smoking are common. 1 week Take a hot, relaxing bath, avoid caffeine (coffee, tea, pop) after 6:00pm Try relaxing at bedtime with a glass of warm milk, deep breathing and relaxation techniques. Work on a hobby.
14. Irritability, grouchy, tense
The body is craving for nicotine. Tobacco smokers are in a chronic state of nervous stimulation. Many of the symptoms quitters experience are the result of the nervous system returning to normal. It normally last for 1-2 weeks. Deep breathe, take walks, exercise, use relaxation techniques, chew nicotine gum, cut down on coffee and pop.
15. Lack of concentration
The body needs time to adjust to not having constant stimulation from nicotine. A few weeks Change activities, get some fresh air, exercise, deep breathe, listen to music, watch TV, do more physical activity, cut down on coffee and cola, plan workload accordingly, avoid situations that may trigger your desire to smoke.
16. Loneliness
Cigarettes are seen by many people as a close friend. Call a real friend. Go for a walk or a drive. Sing, pray.
17. Night Time awakenings
Cigarettes are seen by many people as a close friend. Call a real friend. Go for a walk or a drive. Sing, pray.
18. Restlessness
Exercise. Work on a hobby. Catch up on your chores. Do some extra jobs at work.
19. Tightness in the chest
It is probably due to tension created by the body’s need for nicotine; may be caused by sore muscles from coughing. Part of the recovery process may be the lung’s attempt to remove mucus and tar. The normal mucus transport system will start to reactivate itself, which can initially cause coughing. It will last a few days. Deep breathing and relaxation techniques. Be patient; wait it out! Your body wants to return to normal.
20. Weight gain
Weight gain from quitting smoking is very normal for most people and you can expect to put on 5-10 pounds over the period of several months. Remember that this extra weight gain is a lot better than continuing to smoke!
20 WHOLE LOT OF THEM. Good luck quitters.
1-6, 9, 10, 12-16. Don't blame me people because I am showing signs. I am quitting. So, help me by being more patient.
(Jul 13, 2008)
Back to basic. Blended 3 colours on the right side. I am planning to shave one side and dye bright red for the rest of the hair after my SIP. Wee. Cannot wait can. I was on the verge of shaving my hair again but to think of it, SIP is nearing, shan't be so terror so I chose concave again. Boring.
Retail therapy with Cynthia and Momsie. We had Sakae for late lunch and walked around Parkway. Went to courts and Cynthia bought me a Logitech speakers. Went to Ikea and bought some containers and two towels. Bleah. Shiok.
I still want that HDLN cap, that Dickies backpack and that Kidrobot pakka (:
()
I am practicing self-control & self-discipline.
I am saying no to temptation & doing whatever that will complicate things.
And all I want is spending more time with myself (:
I am easily forgotten but really, that doesn't matter much to me anymore. Probably because I'm used to it. Nah, I am not choosing the option of opening up and sharing my personal feelings with people. I don't need that to gain more friends. I am pretty tired of calling people for dinner just to keep track of their life, to catch up with them or just to have a little time with them. I am just very, very tired with that routine. It doesn't pay to be kind. I shall be some selfish bitch who only care for herself from now on (:
I miss DAPHAM first 11. Dinner on Friday. One more catch up dinner before SIP (: Pretty excited about SIP though. It's nearing, it's nearing. And by that time, I would really be able to spend some alone time with myself (:
Not an emo entry. All smiles (:
I am saying no to temptation & doing whatever that will complicate things.
And all I want is spending more time with myself (:
I am easily forgotten but really, that doesn't matter much to me anymore. Probably because I'm used to it. Nah, I am not choosing the option of opening up and sharing my personal feelings with people. I don't need that to gain more friends. I am pretty tired of calling people for dinner just to keep track of their life, to catch up with them or just to have a little time with them. I am just very, very tired with that routine. It doesn't pay to be kind. I shall be some selfish bitch who only care for herself from now on (:
I miss DAPHAM first 11. Dinner on Friday. One more catch up dinner before SIP (: Pretty excited about SIP though. It's nearing, it's nearing. And by that time, I would really be able to spend some alone time with myself (:
Not an emo entry. All smiles (:
(Jul 12, 2008)
The meet up with Ugly Voon was short and sweet (:
I am looking at Feng's day 1 & 2 London photos. Probably because I haven't been to London or maybe it's true that London is beautiful. Unlike Singapore, with all the constructions going around. Air pollution.
Oh well, back to mo graph.
I am looking at Feng's day 1 & 2 London photos. Probably because I haven't been to London or maybe it's true that London is beautiful. Unlike Singapore, with all the constructions going around. Air pollution.
Oh well, back to mo graph.
(Jul 11, 2008)
Mo graph class today was fun even though there were only 6 people. We blasted songs and sang along. Heh (: after that was slacking in the canteen. Caught up with Warren. Being a long time since we've chatted like this so the feeling was nice. We laughed at people and laughed at ourselves as well.
Otto dinner was nice too. My face was so tired from all those laughing. Even the auntie working at there kept staring at us and cleaning up our table for a dozen times.
I don't really care what people say or think about me behind my back because they don't bother me.
I shall use my weekend to finish up my motion graphic because I do not know what to do for screen writing yet. I am meeting Voon tomorrow (:
Oh wow look at Ben's recently-turned-hot-bod-because-commando-training-is-tough-shit.
" it's not about what you have left behind, it's about what you will gain in the days ahead"
Otto dinner was nice too. My face was so tired from all those laughing. Even the auntie working at there kept staring at us and cleaning up our table for a dozen times.
I don't really care what people say or think about me behind my back because they don't bother me.
I shall use my weekend to finish up my motion graphic because I do not know what to do for screen writing yet. I am meeting Voon tomorrow (:
Oh wow look at Ben's recently-turned-hot-bod-because-commando-training-is-tough-shit.
" it's not about what you have left behind, it's about what you will gain in the days ahead"
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ja(RED) says: (11:58:43 PM)
will miss your nonsense
I'm hardly nonsensical nowadays. Always so sleepy and all. But although this block is kinda hectic, I still enjoy going to classes everyday. Perhaps because there is no more WHD. "Been through hell, everywhere is heaven"
ja(RED) says: (12:00:26 AM)
i remember the first thing you said to me was " JARED! WHY YOU CAN START EATING?!?!"
LOLOL. That made me sound damn dumb and made me miss camp again.
I was reflecting on stuffs and I still believe in karma ): Whatever you do, someone out there will be affected.
Oh well, I am going to start on my work now.
will miss your nonsense
I'm hardly nonsensical nowadays. Always so sleepy and all. But although this block is kinda hectic, I still enjoy going to classes everyday. Perhaps because there is no more WHD. "Been through hell, everywhere is heaven"
ja(RED) says: (12:00:26 AM)
i remember the first thing you said to me was " JARED! WHY YOU CAN START EATING?!?!"
LOLOL. That made me sound damn dumb and made me miss camp again.
I was reflecting on stuffs and I still believe in karma ): Whatever you do, someone out there will be affected.
Oh well, I am going to start on my work now.
(Jul 10, 2008)
"Never trust anyone, not even your father"
I think I've entrusted my friends with too much secrets, too much of my personal feelings. Now I feel sick (and paranoia) about it.
()
i don't like hypocrites, so i don't like you.
yes, you.
yes, you.
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"one last sebs 
"
"
(Jul 8, 2008)
12 Lotus by Royston Tan. Premiering on 14th August.
And THE DAYS poster is out in GV already! Coming this September!
Pity ONE didn't get selected for 5th Singapore Shorts. And speaking of which, I missed the ticket collection for this Saturday's 5th Singapore Shorts. Meh. So sad. I want to go next week but got Jacky's shoot /: I guess I have to miss the next Saturday one too since I already promised Jacky long ago.
It's 3.08am now. I was supposed to be sleeping. Thank you Tommy huh.
cheerupbigboy (:
And THE DAYS poster is out in GV already! Coming this September!
Pity ONE didn't get selected for 5th Singapore Shorts. And speaking of which, I missed the ticket collection for this Saturday's 5th Singapore Shorts. Meh. So sad. I want to go next week but got Jacky's shoot /: I guess I have to miss the next Saturday one too since I already promised Jacky long ago.
It's 3.08am now. I was supposed to be sleeping. Thank you Tommy huh.
cheerupbigboy (:
(Jul 7, 2008)
i spent a few hours in front of the television.
()
Did this last night in an hour. Kinda raw. Might try a second and better version when I have the time.
()
I'm only human, sometimes I make mistakes.
How I wish this was all a long bad dream.
(Jul 6, 2008)
Funny how people always tell me I've got a lot of friends and my friends are all funny and fun to be with because somehow I think I'm pretty lonely at most of the time.
This picture is so weirdly composited. I just realized it's slanted. Damn.
(Jul 5, 2008)
Motion Graphics Exercise ONE is constantly at the back of my mind. Imagine how it'll be like when it comes to the final assignment. Those from the previous MG class asked me to start early. I think I should. I think everyone wants to be the next Jason Feng. You know like, as zai as him when it comes to MG. And so, it has been kinda competitive. Idk. It's just what I think it is.
Shoot was slack yet tiring at the same time. I am not very involved. I am very worried for my MG. I guess secretly I want to excel in something. "What's your style?" Idk how to answer that. At year Three, I still do not know what's my style. Goodness gracious. I need to reflect and start finding my designer style.
I am tired. I am sleepy. I want to sleep but I told myself I need to at least start editing the AI file for my MG by tonight.
I'm lost for words for my script report. The synopsis part was alright but the comment part, I've typed and backtracked for the 1000th times already. Sighs. I am taking a break. If you would consider blogging as a break.
I think I am just stress. Somehow I am not looking forward to internship anymore. Lesser sleep than what I am already having. I am a heavy sleeper. And the guys kept wanting to go for more competition. I want to, but I hate doing things half heartedly.
I want to be active in this scene, in this industry. But are we there yet? Looking at the works of Boi's students, I kinda got demoralized already. They are really awesome. Their technical skills, their concept and their unity are indescribably awesome.
Ah, I've spent enough time thinking of unnecessary stuffs and now it's time for work again.
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CONGRATULATION FISHBALL AND 2,3,4,5 FOR CLENCHING THE CHAMPION TITLE FOR THE DANCE COMPETITION AT DBL O JUST NOW! And take care Fishball, enjoy your 2 weeks holidays in States!
So in the end we didn't get to see Fishball and her crew dance but we had expensive and not so nice bak kut teh. And now I'm having indigestion. The bak kut are playing merry-go-round in my stomach. GRR*
I've got a 76 pages script to read on and to do a summary report on and I am frigging tired. Fifi is a dog in that script and there is a David in the script as well and he is laughing at it now. Bahhs.
I still think that Larry should be in the top 5 most handsome guys in Design. HOR?
Okay I should go sleep now because I can't concentrate on reading the script now. BEH.
(nah, not emo. just random and bored)
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a simple bus ride home full of friendship (:
So in the end we didn't get to see Fishball and her crew dance but we had expensive and not so nice bak kut teh. And now I'm having indigestion. The bak kut are playing merry-go-round in my stomach. GRR*
I've got a 76 pages script to read on and to do a summary report on and I am frigging tired. Fifi is a dog in that script and there is a David in the script as well and he is laughing at it now. Bahhs.
I still think that Larry should be in the top 5 most handsome guys in Design. HOR?
Okay I should go sleep now because I can't concentrate on reading the script now. BEH.
(nah, not emo. just random and bored)
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a simple bus ride home full of friendship (:
(Jul 4, 2008)
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:09:57 AM)
im warmin up rice and sotong
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:10:02 AM)
my sotongs exploded
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:10:02 AM)
lol
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:10:12 AM)
ok srry
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:10:40 AM)
wth how did sotong explode
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:11 AM)
like cause i warmed them up
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:39 AM)
then like its the ring kind
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:46 AM)
they too warm uh.
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:46 AM)
then i saw like gun shot wounds
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:48 AM)
haha
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:52 AM)
burst
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:52 AM)
LOLOL.
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:54 AM)
WTH.
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:59 AM)
THAT WAS FUNNNY
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:12:00 AM)
SHITTT
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:12:29 AM)
it went like bang bang then i faster stop
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:12:30 AM)
haha
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:12:46 AM)
you mean the sotong went BANG BANG?
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:13:18 AM)
YAA
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! and the sotong went BANG BANG says: (3:13:48 AM)
errrr. microwave?
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:27 AM)
yaaa
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:28 AM)
haha
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:37 AM)
like POM POM
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:51 AM)
cause like microwave heats from inside out
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:15 AM)
so like sotong rings v small mah
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:16 AM)
haha
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:19 AM)
hilarious
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:25 AM)
i was laughin at the sotongs la
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So the sotongs went bang bang tonight.
"if fart is methane gas then methane gas smells like fart"
Stop rubbing your eyes fiona.
im warmin up rice and sotong
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:10:02 AM)
my sotongs exploded
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:10:02 AM)
lol
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:10:12 AM)
ok srry
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:10:40 AM)
wth how did sotong explode
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:11 AM)
like cause i warmed them up
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:39 AM)
then like its the ring kind
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:46 AM)
they too warm uh.
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:46 AM)
then i saw like gun shot wounds
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:48 AM)
haha
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:11:52 AM)
burst
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:52 AM)
LOLOL.
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:54 AM)
WTH.
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:11:59 AM)
THAT WAS FUNNNY
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:12:00 AM)
SHITTT
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:12:29 AM)
it went like bang bang then i faster stop
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:12:30 AM)
haha
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! says: (3:12:46 AM)
you mean the sotong went BANG BANG?
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:13:18 AM)
YAA
LEEDAOMING & MATTHEWLI LEFT SIX DAYS! and the sotong went BANG BANG says: (3:13:48 AM)
errrr. microwave?
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:27 AM)
yaaa
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:28 AM)
haha
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:37 AM)
like POM POM
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:14:51 AM)
cause like microwave heats from inside out
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:15 AM)
so like sotong rings v small mah
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:16 AM)
haha
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:19 AM)
hilarious
DAVID || 0M06D says: (3:15:25 AM)
i was laughin at the sotongs la
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So the sotongs went bang bang tonight.
"if fart is methane gas then methane gas smells like fart"
Stop rubbing your eyes fiona.
(Jul 3, 2008)
People changes as time passes, no?
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Had lunch with Sheena. Short and nice. (:
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And I'm the airhead today. Daoming said I hibernating egg on my head and I-forgot-whats-the-freshie-name said I wearing Mojojojo's hat. Kinda cool leh. I want that baby blue headline mesh!
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Pretty much to do for Screen Writing and Motion Graphics. Weekend's burn for shooting. The 3 guys are pretty excited about this whole competition thingy. Of course, our first! And hopefully things will turn out well yes?
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Had dinner with some of the main comm after their meeting.
I had a lot of faith and hope in the comm, really. I told those who asked that my reason of not running again is because I wanted to give up my seat to someone who is more worth it than me. Idk am I making the right choice or not, but of course, I hope I did. Idk if the 15 of you wanted to run because of the popularity test, the hunger for power, the experience or just wanted to serve the school but I just wanted to say, now that you guys are in, just do your best in whatever you're doing as a TEAM and just LOVE one another. I don't want to regret making the wrong choice later in the AY. I don't know how many of you will read this or can I even say this publicly. But whatever it is, do your best as an exco. It's nice seeing 20 sub com to 50+ to now, more than a hundred. I know it's gonna be difficult juggling what you already have on hands, your studies and now, a leadership position but hang in there because the rest of the school are looking at you. So, ROCK DESIGN SCHOOL YOH!
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Hi Donson, I love you. I'm talking to you now so, cheer up and I believe in you okay.
Hi Tomu, sorry for being a bitch and oh well, you know how much I love you till now yes, yes?
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I am going to pee now and call Sheena. Byes.
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Had lunch with Sheena. Short and nice. (:
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And I'm the airhead today. Daoming said I hibernating egg on my head and I-forgot-whats-the-freshie-name said I wearing Mojojojo's hat. Kinda cool leh. I want that baby blue headline mesh!
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Pretty much to do for Screen Writing and Motion Graphics. Weekend's burn for shooting. The 3 guys are pretty excited about this whole competition thingy. Of course, our first! And hopefully things will turn out well yes?
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Had dinner with some of the main comm after their meeting.
I had a lot of faith and hope in the comm, really. I told those who asked that my reason of not running again is because I wanted to give up my seat to someone who is more worth it than me. Idk am I making the right choice or not, but of course, I hope I did. Idk if the 15 of you wanted to run because of the popularity test, the hunger for power, the experience or just wanted to serve the school but I just wanted to say, now that you guys are in, just do your best in whatever you're doing as a TEAM and just LOVE one another. I don't want to regret making the wrong choice later in the AY. I don't know how many of you will read this or can I even say this publicly. But whatever it is, do your best as an exco. It's nice seeing 20 sub com to 50+ to now, more than a hundred. I know it's gonna be difficult juggling what you already have on hands, your studies and now, a leadership position but hang in there because the rest of the school are looking at you. So, ROCK DESIGN SCHOOL YOH!
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Hi Donson, I love you. I'm talking to you now so, cheer up and I believe in you okay.
Hi Tomu, sorry for being a bitch and oh well, you know how much I love you till now yes, yes?
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I am going to pee now and call Sheena. Byes.
()
i practically forgets everything nowadays. i need my planner with me 24/7. goodness gracious, i think i deserve this ):
(Jul 2, 2008)
i was trying too hard to not be myself and it got backfired.
i've got too much emotional rides and that's all that i could take. it was only a short 30days month. and this whole emotion battling started exactly a month ago. it seemed so much shorter than i thought. i didn't expect it to change my life and stir up my feelings and emotion this much. time and again i thought i've moved on but i always found myself rooted to the same ground when i turn around. how can someone affect/bother me so much? i never really bother to find out why. always using "affairs of the heart" as an excuse, an explanation. but really, i couldn't find a reason why. maybe i do, just that i believe it's not.
i thought it was the past but i realised that it's not. maybe behaving like that is just myself, just fiona.
moses always ask me "why they call you nehneh?" and i always replied with a smile on my face "i don't know?" but in fact, nehneh gave me a whole new identity, a new "myself". nehneh brought me a lot of friends, nice ones. nehneh brought me a lot of nice memories too. being nehneh opened me up to these heap of impossibilities and allowed me to see and learn so much more. this might sound absurd and weird and funny but it's true. and now, nehneh's gone and i'm fiona, myself again. i want to be the nehneh again.
no one is always happy. i don't want to be someone who everyone will refer to as the "she will be okay. because she's fiona" person. because i know if i become someone like that to everyone, i will only turnout to be a disappointment one day. there's this saying "i know myself best", no?
i've got too much emotional rides and that's all that i could take. it was only a short 30days month. and this whole emotion battling started exactly a month ago. it seemed so much shorter than i thought. i didn't expect it to change my life and stir up my feelings and emotion this much. time and again i thought i've moved on but i always found myself rooted to the same ground when i turn around. how can someone affect/bother me so much? i never really bother to find out why. always using "affairs of the heart" as an excuse, an explanation. but really, i couldn't find a reason why. maybe i do, just that i believe it's not.
i thought it was the past but i realised that it's not. maybe behaving like that is just myself, just fiona.
moses always ask me "why they call you nehneh?" and i always replied with a smile on my face "i don't know?" but in fact, nehneh gave me a whole new identity, a new "myself". nehneh brought me a lot of friends, nice ones. nehneh brought me a lot of nice memories too. being nehneh opened me up to these heap of impossibilities and allowed me to see and learn so much more. this might sound absurd and weird and funny but it's true. and now, nehneh's gone and i'm fiona, myself again. i want to be the nehneh again.
no one is always happy. i don't want to be someone who everyone will refer to as the "she will be okay. because she's fiona" person. because i know if i become someone like that to everyone, i will only turnout to be a disappointment one day. there's this saying "i know myself best", no?
(Jul 1, 2008)
i just break tonight.
if that's the answer you guys are looking for.
if that's the answer you guys are looking for.