When I blew my top at them today I knew that I hit the limit already and that's it for me.
I'm sorry for using the F word at you guys.

Recently, I've talked too much, met too much of the same people, spend too much time outside and I am lacking of sleep.

I should stop hanging out late and not meet the same people that often and talk lesser.

Smokers are bad people, they steal, scold vulgarities, never will be a nice friend, arson, fight, kill, rape, etc. So don't ever make friends with a smoker.

So long and goodbye people.

i started staring at those beautiful words on an unfamiliar bed. re-reading those words seemed to be a sweet torture. but i managed to do what i'm supposed to in the end. but i kept a few. those few that i would want to read again in the future and smile to myself and say "haa. process of growing up".

but in the process of deleting those beautiful words, i realised there is no way i could delete away those beautiful memories, big or small. i'll treasure them and let them fade with time.

sorry and thank you, dhl.

NO MORE WHD. NO MORE WHD. NO MORE WHD. CHEEEERS



DYB ended on Friday. Finally no more set up for the guys and pack up for us. Gruesome yet happy 2 weeks spent on the 1st level. More photo editing to be done next week. Jiayou Tom, Chrys, Amos and I. We is can do it yo.

Friday night was ___(fill in the blanks). Other than seeing Arthur, Jisheng and Zhenwei, there was nothing to be happy about. Seeing Jisheng was like the happiest thing that can ever happen these days.

Every stayover at Tom's is different. This time round was drinking game, indian poker and truth(and truth). It was not really a exactly fun night and not everyone enjoyed the night. But I guess, the company was nice and everything fall into place nicely as well. The booze got me kinda high and I can't stop laughing.

(Sidetrack) Sorry if I didn't turn out to be a good friend (to anyone out there). I've been trying to be a nice person and all but you know, people are born with flaws. I will continue trying.

I was trying to be ___(fill in the blanks again) till Amos asked me that question. Oh well,,, It's like an epidemic seriously, if you know what I'm referring to.

I just hope that everyone will start smiling and be happy all over again.
Though I know it's getting harder for everyone who's in the same situation but just try to be a little happier as time goes by.

Woke up on Saturday afternoon and had lunch with Caleb, Gary and Amos. Amos and I went back to Tom's and watched the four of them swim. I left earlier and met Sheena in town.

Thank you Sheena many many because you know, I can never thank you enough (even though you're like right in front of me right now). LOL. We sat at starbucks chatting and i, emo-ing. Being long since I categorize myself under that league. Wells,,,,

Took away mee goreng to my place and I felt better after stepping ihome. But I left my charger at Tom's and I have to edit the DYB photos so I'm like at Sheena's now.



Anyway, CONGRATS to Jason Feng and Rei for clenching two D&AD awards. The first few from the school to clench D&AD awards and wah, proudness luh. moImd peeps are also given a chance to actually welcome them back from the airport on Monday. I think there's a charted bus so if you're free and wanna meet the two handsome and zai graduates, 9.30am at design entrance.

Next block will be a beezee block. Screen writing and Motion graphics (and) Justin's MTV shoot. Must start prioritizing already ):



Anyway,



Melvintage just sent me this. He said the face on the left hand side is a ghost because he swear no one was there. Yay. Let's all get cursed and die together!

It's a weird, weird night.

^o.O^ The world is a mirror of myself dying says: (4:11:14 AM)
another one who ate his victims said that he reasoned eating them made them a part of him forever.

I love Yumi.


___________





I just can't bear to. I need more time .

red eyes. too much staring at the screen ):
finally, i can rest today. oh wait. maybe not.
editing to do )):

watched HULK with the rest. a good way to unwind. okay not exactly but yah, it kinda make me take my mind off things.

just finished my written proposal for comda at 5.40am. i should have started earlier so i do not need to stay up so late to do my work.




this video made me feel so small and there's so much more people out there that i've yet to meet.

it's starting to spin up there and i think i shall just go sleep on continue editing the pictures/videos later on in the afternoon. i'm too stone for anything now.

Linda is going back to saudi in a few hours time. i want to send her off but my brain is like dead now.







just so you know, i've moved on. sorry for being a bitch and all but i really hope nothing will change the friendship. sorry.

Yumi, thank you. Once again, as always.

I'm somewhere between ignore and pretend. When something affect me, I either ignore or pretend to be happy. I don't pretend nothing happened because it just doesn't help me in any way. I just pretend to be happy. But Yumi made me realized something, "pretending is only temporary".



^o.O^ The world is a mirror of myself dying says: (2:53:40 AM)time never heals. only makes you get use to the shittiness

fionehneh: i was okay
fionehneh: for the past few days
fionehneh: to pretend
fionehneh: to be happy. to laugh because sometimes laughters works wonders.
fionehneh: but

^o.O^ i know
^o.O^ could hear the blatant laughters.
^o.O^ forcefully.
^o.O^ if it isnt you then why pretend

fionehneh: because it makes me better.

^o.O^ temporarily perhaps
^o.O^ think about what would really make you feel better
^o.O^ in the long term

fionehneh: because people ard me wont start to worry.
fionehneh: i only need to pretend for a few more days.
fionehneh: just couple more.
fionehneh: this is not a good month.
fionehneh: just when i thought i am handling it well, it crashed.
fionehneh: idk how you can ignore everything that is bothering you. i wish i could too.

^o.O^ people around you worry because it is current. give it time and most of them start worrying about other current things and you become a memory. is it really worth it if all you're doing is just so that people around you would feel better, and not you? i think you need time alone to think and understand yourself more..
^o.O^ its a matter of practice.



I always learn something new from them (fellow MOIans) and that includes seeing true friendship. From how we can talk to each other like close friends though we seldom sit down and talk to how a sorry can make wonder.

Sometimes I'm really proud of ourselves. We quarreled, we get pissed off with each other, we walked out of the room and banged the door, we shouted over the phone and hanged up but we always talked it out, apologize and move on with zero awkwardness. Or we just let each other cool off and then talk as usual because we all know the dynamics of one another and always ended up laughing at how stupid the whole thing was.


I need to be myself again.

Cam-whoring with Donson's shutter shades.








And some ThreeD lab loves.





DYB (what we do when there's no one)





cause Mel looks fugly in this. LOL.


And the coolshitdope ADMers.


they is poserzxz. LOL.






immabeokay

It's a brushes downloading frenzy.
3D lab is still love. We should start hanging out again.
I am currently doing logo design for TVPROGDES because the rest of the group mates are settling the video part. Thank god I had understanding group mates.
Presentation went well I guess? Had 2 cans of Red Bull by 1pm (I woke up at 11am).
Good luck to Warren's and Aidah's SIP interview later on. Loves <3

Burning midnight oil for the second night.
It's 2.31am and look at the number of designers still online (include the 3 from Otto).



Cheehui called earlier on. They are out together and I have work to do and I can't join them.
Spoke to Huili and Jisheng as well and oh how much I misses them man.

And my mind is officially brain dead. Thank god Darryl reminded me that the presentation is tomorrow because I thought mine was on Wednesday. GG and thus I only started at 11+pm after I got home from dinner. Oh wellll.

Man. David is lousy he fall asleep right after asking me not to fall asleep.
Syafiq, Darryl and Chrys are still chionging work.
AND AMOS IS HAPPILY PLAYING MAPLESTORY. TMD.

Sighs. Must get back to work alr ):

You know, I always think that Sheena and I had this unexplainable affinity between us.
I sounded damn gay. LOL.

It's 4.13am and I am still doing work. I am the hardworking one ((:

Anyway, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY BUDDY TAI!



I couldn't find a nice picture of you. All the others were either too beng or too unglam. So I found this very "sat" picture of you protecting your ball /:



Hope everything is going well for you and meet up soon alright. Since I missed the annual meet up with everyone. And I miss Jasper, Zhenwei, Bernard, Jisheng and the rest luh. They always make me laugh like shit. Bleah. I miss New Upper Changi Road Block 9 and 30 yo.

Alright. I shall go back to my work. Another week of DYB.

I logged on to msn and I saw this. Yes Hakim, I totally agree with that.
Laugh when it hurts.
Sometimes we just don't know how to react. Some choose to remain silent while some choose to laugh it away. Remaining silent and all those sad and black face doesn't work well.
I've remained silent and cried it out but nothing works better than just laughing it off.
So, just laugh when you're sad, just laugh when you're feeling down, just laugh when it hurts. Whatever it is, just laugh. There's a saying, laughters are the best remedy.
Did I mention FOOD is next best remedy?

Linda and Cynthia are baking again. Cynthia is baking some cookies and Linda is making creme puffs. Yes ah. Sisters are the best (:

Hmm, I shall find something to laugh today. I'm still thinking of Chrystal's "i think my sister fart in her sleep. the room is damn smelly now". LOLOLOLOLOL.




I felt so small, my problem/s so minute and insignificant after watching this video.
If she can laugh and be happy albeit having to fight even to dress up everyday, why is it that I'm so bothered about moving on?

Zack spells dope. He is so much hotter in real life than on Contender Asia.
DOPENESS.

I shall laugh laugh, smile smile everyday.
Because laughing and smiling makes me HAPPY.
They are my best friends.

One said "Glad that you're smiling again. Your smiles makes me happy." another said "Are you really okay? I don't sense happiness in your laughters" and the last one said "The most important thing is that as long as you are feeling happy. Nothing else matters."

Thank you. Sorry if I didn't reply because I don't know what to reply and thus the abrupt ending to whatever conversation that was going on.

The brain is not functioning tonight. So I shall not think anymore. I am happy. And a happy person do not need to think so much. So, why think when I am happy? I am happy (:

i'm healing happily, i think.
(:

now i realize that i really didnt know
you didnt notice, you mean everything
quickly im learning, to love again
all i know is, imma be ok

thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
even though i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time



nah. big smile for everyone.

BIG SMILES TO ALL BECAUSE FIONA IS ALMOST BACK.
SHE IS LAUGHING, EATING A LOT (THOUGH NOT AS MUCH AS YUMI) AND SHE IS FEELING THUMBS UP! SO <3 PEOPLE.

Camwhored like siao for the whole of yesterday. Like ALOT. But I think I'm a superb photographer because I made Caleb look so handsome in the picture.

Yumi made me hungry in the middle of the night with



JAPANESE CURRY CHICKEN.

SIMI SAI right?! Wah lao. Damn hungry now. DIES. And I miss her Dad's Tendori Chicken!

Okay and then I was thinking about uploading some of the DYB random photos we took but then again, it will probably take days so when I'm free-er, I will upload. LOL.

PEARLYN COME CAMWHORE WITH US OKAYYY?!

The sudden outburst of tears in school today was embarrassing to max I know.
I don't understand why too. I thought I was coping quite well but oh well.
I know some of you are rather worried but I'll be fine.
(and thanks to the idk who who said "don't disturb/ask her")
Sorry I can't explain to every single one who is curious or concerned because I am simply not obliged to. It may sound harsh but please understand.
And sorry group mates, I forgot about the presentation.

Oh well, can't lose what you never had.


And talking to Tomu made me felt so, so, so much better (:
We all need to start meeting up (not for DYB) but just sit and talk like that night at PS Cartel.
But I just realised I've got so much work undone. I'm dead. Proposal for both TV Prog Design and ComDA is still B.L.A.N.K

And now my mind is BLANK too.
I shall have an early night today because I'm tired from whatever.


I need to start learning to smile and be happy all over again /:

It started when Donson sent me a message in messenger. The tears that I tried so hard to control just flowed down in an instant. So much have been running through my mind lately. I wish we can just cry as and when we like without being looked at weirdly. It's a night that I need all the love, care and concern. Trying to be fine when I'm not is so much more difficult than I thought furthermore I've been spending so much time in school recently. I swear that day when I shouted at Izak it wasn't on purpose because everyone knows I dote on him a lot, I really do. And today I said the wrong things to Tomu when my mind was preoccupied by something else. And then seeing Jared so gloomy and sad and I can't do anything just makes me feel worse. And there is Carmen and Chrystal who are already so bothered by their problems yet they still spent time to listen to me. And then I finally decided to talk it out. I don't know where I garner all those courage from to talk for the second time about it and to say so much. I guess it's the right thing to do but my heart is still feeling so heavy and empty. It came to a point where I can't feel anymore. And now, I am still feeling so terrible for this who saga and I wonder why is it to difficult to just move on. I've seen so many people moving on easily and fast but why am I always the last in this case? It's funny how someone like me can be easily beaten in this situation. He said I'm a brave girl. I think I am since I said so much funny stuffs. Maybe one day when I look back at the conversation history, I will start laughing and wonder why the hell did I say all those stuffs and then I will hide under my blanket for a long, long time reminiscing. The one day will come, it definitely will but just, when? Time will heal, it will, right?

It's only two days and it'd changed a lot of things around me. Everytime I looked away, my heart aches. Everytime I tried to ignore, I feel terrible. It kinda makes me... miss you more.

My heart is aching. I'm sorry for the sudden change of attitude. I feel terrible (too). I'm really, really sorry.


Thanks to those who listened and to Tomu, sorry, I was stoning and I blabbered without thinking. Sorry.

I like this picture a lot. LOL.



MOI'S TURN FOR DESIGN YEAR BANNER PHOTOTAKING TOMORROW!
So let's live up to our name and be there with our wakiest poses!

In case anyone out there who is reading this blog and is still wondering what the hell is Design Year Banner, DYB is an event where your photos will be taken and collated into a course (year 1,2,3) poster. It will be on sale at cheapcheap 6bucks only.

Then the climax of this event is that EVERYONE who took the photos will have their photo up on a HUGE canvas and it will be place in Design School for EVERYONE to admire. So basically it's like a year book/class photo kinda thing.

So whatever, just come down!


EILEEN KWA TAGGED ME!

Design Studies Club is back with another OTT (it means over the top) event! The DESIGN YEAR BANNER will be a collective collage of photos (with crazyshit expressions and poses) design students from all years and courses put together into one uber-large canvas and will be placed at the design entrance. Apart from showing other schools what we are, the Design Year Banner will also be the first such event where everyone chooses to come together and show how we at design are so much more than just a family.

So watcha u waiting for?! Grab your friends and bring your extreme expressions down to the space between the design LTs from the 17th-27th June at two time slots; 1-3pm and 4-7pm to get your place on the biggest collective collage to ever hit TDS!



We reserved a spot for you. =D

Also, a COURSE POSTER consisting of photosquares (that’s what we’ll call it from now on ya) of all your course mates will be sold at the low low price $6 (that’s zero-profit for us) will also be available for you to purchase. Be it whether you choose to keep it as a souvenir, a poster on your wall, or just something to remember you friends by, it’s something that will definitely be worth keeping. Its not everyday that you get an offer like that! Just DSC’s way of saying thanks, for being the coolest. =)

SPREAD THE WORD YO! xD




THIS EVENT IS PROUDLY BOUGHT TO YOU BY DESIGN STUDIES CLUB.

It's getting difficult again and it's really time to choose what is good for me. Standing rooted to the ground was never an option in my life, I always move on. Sometimes fast, sometimes slow but I always move on. And now it's time that I move on, move on with life and live my life like how it was like previously. I opened my heart again after three long years just to see it getting numb again. I should really just slap myself for that Monday. I thought it would make me feel lighter and better but apparently though it made things a lot easier, I still feel the same. My heart hasn't ache like this for a long time and tonight, it ached again after 3 years. Thank you for making me smile all the time even when I was pissing my top off, and thank you for still being there for me as a friend and not disappear into thin air and thank for you always making me feel comfortable around you. But it became difficult for me again recently and before I start biting myself again to ease the pain in my heart, I have to make a decision for myself. It's not Sunday everyday and running from the problem is not a solution. I am sorry that I like you, I am sorry that I still feel for you even though I said I will get over it and move on. Sorry I've not tried hard enough to let go and I didn't really plan to. But right now, at this point of time, I have no choice but to just really get over it and move on because I want to be myself again, I want to smile for myself again. I will be there again when I'm ready.

The air is stale tonight.

Meh. PC Show was tiring to max.
Apple is shiok. They earn commission like siao.
And then we were like dead bored so Esther, KT and I folded the 100bucks flyer from OCBC and tricked the people.
Apparently 3 people got tricked.
Then later on they started again. One of D-Link guy got fooled and then they joined in and so did G Cube. So it was three booths laughing at those people who got tricked.

And so, finally, my legs can rest now. Gave Starbucks with the rest a miss because Brother fetched me home.

I AM...
VERY TIRED!

Happy Friday the 13th.

Good luck to Recruit Ong C L, Benjamin Gabriel & Pang S L.
Also, hope Kar Kin & Jolly is doing well in MIT.

That old tortise just sent a mail. BLAH BLAH BLAH.
I still don't like her especially the food on her mouth, gross.

Work tomorrow. Hope it'll be good because this time round, there's no Jacen & Weixiang.
But at least I will see those that I haven't seen since NYP road show.

Today is so blah blah.

Sister in law cooked Tom Yum soup and it was yummy like WOW.
And there was bahzhang and durian too!

I need to start reading and stop skipping classes.







i'm still trying.

Go on and remind yourself of those memories with him, go on and blame yourself for the times you did not spend with him, go on and cry because you miss him, but when everything is over, stand up straight again and move on with life. It's not easy but you (guys) have to do it. You (guys) have to be strong for his family, for each other and for him. God simply made arrangement with him and it's time for him to fulfill them. So if you love him, let him go. One day, you (guys) will find yourself joking about the jokes he once said, laughing at his once retarded movements and imitate him all over again. Keep him in the heart because the mind forgets details.

I am not close to him but he's definitely one of my eye candy when I was in year 1. Condolences to all affected. I'm really sorry to hear that.

Tom, if you need someone, I'm here. I know it'll take some time, I know it won't be as easy as I've said it, but please be strong. LOVES <3

1. Tell you why I friended you. (You can comment even if you're not my friend on LJ)
2. Associate you with something - random, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ

YUMI.

1. Because we were in the same class in yr1block1 and you're my savior in school!
2. FOOD and Hamham.
3. You're always so cool and calm.
4. You saying you're not hungry when you're stuffing food into your mouth.
5. How much time do you spend on youtube and reading everyday?
6. NONE.

LL.

1. YOU'RE THE FUNNIEST SHIT DURING CHILLING SESSION!
2. Korean, Pau, pink headband, night of fire.
3. You are always laughing and making people around you laugh.
4. You doing night of fire all the time.
5. Does your parents have small eyes too?
6. BAHHS

AMOS.

1. Apparently your presence SOMEHOW, WEIRDLY, makes people happy.
2. ah beng hair, drug abuser face, white white thighs, COTTON ON, wash window.
3. Your willingness to learn (why is there no "Tell you something I hate about you"?)
4. DOTC 1 video!
5. How many movies are you downloading right now?
6. AHHH?

Hug is full of warm
Hug is full of protection
Hug is full of love
Hug is full of comfort
Hug is full of remembrance

There’s something in a simple hug
That always warms the heart;
It welcomes us back home
And makes it easier to part.

A hug’s a way to share the joy
And sad times we go through,
Or just a way for friends to say
They like you ’cause you’re you.

Hugs are meant for anyone
For whom we really care,
From your grandma to your neighbour,
Or a cuddly teddy bear.

A hug is an amazing thing -
It’s just the perfect way
To show the love we’re feeling
But can’t find the words to say.

It’s funny how a little hug
Makes everyone feel good;
In every place and language,
It’s always understood.

And hugs don’t need new equipment,
Special batteries or parts -
Just open up your arms
And open up your hearts.






I hope there's an eraser in my head.

Comment with a ! and I'll:
1. Tell you why I friended you. (You can comment even if you're not my friend on LJ)
2. Associate you with something - random, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ

LL asked me to post in my BROOOG instead of LJ. So ya.

Awesome shit that Yumi showed me.

Congrats to those who made it for OST and to those who found their SIP company.
Less than 2 months left before SIP comes.

I've just finished my presentation slides for tomorrow and now I am damn hungry. I feel like eating Spaghetti but it's damn filling. Bahhs

This week is packed again. Weekends will be spend working at PC show. Those who wants to buy Hard disk please let ME know okay.

Ahh. I am going for food hunt now. I want eat carrot cake. Shit.

Okay you know what? I've never particularly hate any lecturer before and Wahidah is the FIRST! And when I mean hate, I REALLY MEAN H.A.T.E!

We've spent so much time on Assignment 2, we've not even touch on Assignment 1. She argued explained that Assignment 1 is Own Time Own Target. So what? OTOT means class must be all about Assignment 2 luh? I mean like at least have a consultation day right? So today she said Thurs will be a consultation day for Assignment 1 AND 2. I totally can't be bothered about going for the consultation because she is going to fail me ANYWAY.

I don't wanna talk about the toilet incident that happened last week. Today, she let the class off for a 15 mins break at 4.53pm (the time that Carmen called me so I know the EXACT time she let us off). And then at 5.05pm she was like all pissed off because 6 of them are not back yet. And when the rest came back at 5.10pm, she asked them to stand in front of the class and explain why they were late and she questioned the rest of the class "did you call them", "who you called?", ETC ETC ETC. When I spoke up for the 6 people, she said "I know what is 15 mins". I wanted to just walk out of the class but realised that grades are more important (she is going to fail me anyway) and walking out of the class means I'm wrong and NO, I AM GOING TO STAY IN THE CLASS AND CONTINUE ARGUING WITH HER.

I REALLY HATE HER.

I suddenly find Siew Cheng an angel.

I HOPE MOSES READ THIS but he probably will think that Wahidah is right. Lecturers are ALWAYS right. They are the customers and we are the sales person.

Anyway, Tomu bought me Peanut Brittle from Aussie. It smells of Australia (:
Linda is coming back on Thurs! YAY! I can smell HongKong air on her (:
I think I spam too much stickers on Moshy ):


SEBS SEBS SEBS SEBS SEBS SEBS SEBS SEBS.

YESTERDAY

Chrys, Amos, Izaku. No.8, No.5, Fareast, Long John, Shopping. Saw Melvintage (he rejected free BJ. LOL. get well soon luh friend), Pull and bear.
Caleb came. Sushi from Carrefore. Waited for Jingyuan.
No. 133, met WJ. Rochor Tauhuay is sex. Caleb's treat. Thank you.
Met Pearlyn. The Cathy. Wood would (mushroom love), Adidas.
Plaza Singapura, Ice Monster, Mango ice. Amos sick (get well soon), Pearlyn & Chrys left. Kezia & Betty came. Take away food. Open area slack. Oyster mee sua w/o oyster. Jingyuan and Caleb went to claim back Oyster. According to Jingyuan's blog, Caleb said "EH, I ASK FOR OR AH MEE SUA, OR AH LEH? OR PI AH" to them. Home at 10ish.
Pops and Momsie came to fetch me. Yay.


THE SEX



TODAY

Stayed up till late waiting for some drunkard to reach home safely. But I was watching my Grey's Anatomy. AND I FINALLY FINISH SEASON 3 at 6ish am! I can't wait to start on Season 4 please. New characters are coming out! And Heroes Season 3 is coming out soon in September.

Cheer up Donson.

Let's all go watch Kungfu Panda please.

NO MORE BAH ZHANG AT HOME. I IS DAMN SAD ))):

Okay. I need to start on TVprogDesign proposal.

6th

WAHIDAH IS SHIT. I DON'T LIKE HER AND I THINK I WILL FAIL HER MODULE.

Steamboat with Jacen, Sheena & KT. Peiqi came to join us later for awhile. THANK YOU KT FOR THE HALF TREATS. People rich alr. LOL. So though it was short, it was nice. I know Sheena is damn pissed at the turnout but aiya nvm. HKcafe, K and more Starbucks session next week.

It ended early then Jacen and I went to Marina Square. The talk with him was nice. Like after so long we finally caught up (:

Had cakes at Cartel with Weejee, Izaku, David, Jingyuan, LL and Amos (and Jacen). Madness laughters luh. And David's expression when he saw the watch was so unsatisfying please. So we had a take two and ahhh, we laughed like shit. But we all knew that he is actually very happy, so he was lost for words/expression/whatever. Glad that he likes it because I struggled for a long time looking at the different models/series of watches online can. Thank god I chose the correct one if not 15 people is will kill me if he doesn't like it. And Ivy joined us later for awhile and HAHAHA, we all burped in her face LOL. I swear her reaction was damn funny.

Then 518 with LL and David.

So anyway, I miss Tomu luhhhh. And yes, he is coming back on Sunday!! YAY! Is can see his stupid face again and we is can hang out againnnnn! BETTER BRING SOME GOODIES OR AUSSIE AIR BACK LORR.

Oh yes, I need to sleep now because I am meeting Chrystal at 12pm later!! Tauhuay and Bahzhang better be good. LOL.

And Candice is funny. I think she's cute. LOL.

Nights people.


-.- (: SEBS

I am hungry @ 1.59am.

I AM GOING TO BORE YOU PEOPLE WITH THIS ENTRY!!

Cookies are loves (: ComDA lesson was shiok shiok because Charlene is hot to the max yo. Then Caleb came back and HE FORGOT TO CALL ME! LOL. Then went opposite school with Syafiq and Darryl and then we sat under the block to chill yo.

Went back to school and hanged out in the IMD lab. And Weejee tried to throw the paper ball at me across from his office and it landed down at the 5th floor studios, at the freshies. I swear his face was classic. HAHA. Then went for a short group discussion. Then spent the rest of my day in school with Carmen. Had lunch at Mensa because she was craving for Salad Bar. Pondok lepaked after that. Eileen, Eunice and Jiajia is funny with their "dump"s and "next" . Then more people came. Just happy to see the fellow school mates to be back from SIP luh.

Then Carmen joined Sheena and I. Finally got to chill at Starbucks. Shiok shiok. CARMEN CHEER UP WEETS. Then Sheena came to my place for curry chicken. Then we bitched for awhile before she went home.

So yesterday ended happily.

And today started pretty badly but it went all well after that.

I was being a bitch and all. Bad bad friend. I blew my top at Mark and I hanged up the phone on him. Then I was rude to WX. Bahhs. And then David have to cool me down. Then I called Mark again and we cleared it. Then I talked to Jacen. Like finally after so long.



Then Candice lost all her msn contacts. Damn sian please. But I think she had fun adding people back x:

Then David showed me,



in the middle of the night. It was funny just now but not so funny now. For split second, I thought that picture was Gabriel x:

And yay David fall asleep in the middle of the convo AGAIN so the convo with the Twin Brudder ends abruptly at,

DAVID || 1M06D says: (2:11:32 AM)
its just hte hair la

WHIPS.

And YAYNESS, no 12-3 class later. But got presentation for 3-6 class ): and another presentation on Friday )):

Kay, back to presentation slides. Did I mention Cynthia baked pound cake today? And Friday is just tomorrow and that means STEAMBOAT PEOPLE!


YAY. I SEE THAT I'VE BORE YOU GUYS TO TEARS ALREADY.

because it's you, i'll try doubly hard to move on.
i'm actually feeling more than just being glad that we are still friends.
i didn't know it will affect you but just keep that smile going because you promised me.
and no matter what happen in the future, -.- (: yes?
and yes, you're really difficult but who ask us to be fedex and dhl.



i am going to give all my cookies to weejee. and maybe i'll pass some to jared because he is love and maybe some to carmen for being there. and yes. i need to pass some to sheena too. and hmm. wesley for sending me home today. and i still owe izak cookies. and chrystal too. what about yumi, mark and jacen. okay. weejee is not gonna have all the cookies now. lol.

and shoot. david just told me he had durians and man, i am craving for it now though i'm having gastric pain now. damn the irregular meals.

i am going to try to sleep right now. so bye world. loves.

This is like the 983579485th times that I am editing this entry because I don't know which part of my life is worth to blog about for people to read.

Actually it's kinda contradicting. Blog is kinda like a diary and a diary is supposed to be a personal secret so why is everyone blogging and telling everybody else our secrets. I don't understand why people like us love blogging publicly (if there's such a word).

Anyway, enough of self thoughts. Yes, for me to waste my time typing and for people to waste their time reading. I am actually curious about who reads my blog because I jolly well didn't know people like Pearlyn is stalking me *winks*.

The day went well. Occasionally I got spaced out but I guess it's quite okay considering the fact that half of the design students stones. Pondok slacked (they talked about penises, vaginas, bra size and Peanut's nipples are called Merry-go-round), IMD lab for poker and daidee, back to class and home. Staircase chat with Carmen was nice. Thanks loves.



Jared bought me Hershey's and Wesley sent me home. So today is triple the loves.


(the fourth toe)

KT broke his toe. I don't know how can anyone break his toe while doing warm up for soccer but BAHHS, he is my stupid handsome (just to make him feel better) friend. But it was really quite bad so get well soon.

Really can't wait to see everyone on Friday for steamboat. And Tauhuay&Bahzhang craving on Saturday with the design peeps.

I actually felt better after last night. A new feeling (: all I need is a little bit more time and an extra effort to really get over it. I can do it BANGS!

I think I got a lot of work to do but I don't know what needs to be done. All thanks to spacing out during lesson.

it made me feel lighter but not any better.
i still feel as _____ (fill in the blanks) as ever.

the world doesn't only revolves around you and i but everyone else.

my memories taste of you says: (10:21:06 PM)
do what u think might make u happy

i don't know if it will make me happy or not but i think, i will just do it all the same.

my memories taste of you says: (10:21:17 PM)
happiness
my memories taste of you says: (10:21:20 PM)
needs to be earned

my memories taste of you says: (10:21:36 PM)
they need to decide for themselves what they want
my memories taste of you says: (10:21:39 PM)
and you
my memories taste of you says: (10:21:48 PM)
need to fight fight fight

my memories taste of you says: (10:23:33 PM)
well make a try
my memories taste of you says: (10:23:35 PM)
to be yourself

so i guess to make myself happier, it is to do something that i feel like doing. i don't know if it's the right decision or not but oh well, there is always a loser in a game, no?

i can't find that courageous fiona in me anymore. the one that no matter what will just do what she feels like doing. i think she just died along with Joseph. i need to find myself back. it's really difficult for myself, for everyone around me for being the anti social me. i need to get my life back.

for now, i shall think what am i going to do next; to see someone all bless with love or to fight for something i love. i guess, i'll choose the first.

ja(RED) says: (10:34:24 PM)
smile yo!
ja(RED) says: (10:34:47 PM)
me am always behind you!

thanks carmen, jared and sheena.

tell me i'm not wrong.

and sorry tommy, i don't feel like talking to anyone now.
i need tomu or izaku ):

ok i can't think straight now. i am going to do my work now. i am going to do my work now. i am going to do my work now. like NOW.

Yesterday night was a happy, happy night because everyone was happy, happy but I still think about you before I fall asleep. Shit.

They call me nehneh I like mushroom and I can't leave home without a watch.
To-Do/Wish List:

1. $2 scheduler from Muji