(Mar 31, 2008)
Nothing to say about DOTC 2 except for the word fun.
Love all the camp committees especially FAs.
I LOVE OTTO and all the other GLs.
" we are f i n e fine
down the l i n e line
so we l o v e love it
all the t i m e time
we are the b e s t best
among the r e s t rest
so we l o v e love it
all the t i m e time "
And I love the 3-10 rooms very, very much.
And I love Main Coms.
And it's gonna be the 3rd and the last camp with TOMU!
4 hours of debrief after break camp before I went home to eat and bathe and went down for Boi's shoot straightaway. I stayed awake for more than 24 hours. I don't know how I did it though.
Wrap war started off slowly and violently. P2 stress and lack of sleep from camp and shoot (and maybe because I don't like the two girls) causes me to join in.
Alright I catapult from far because I scared I will get dirtied and hurt because the guys were playing so violently. Candice and April had to stop it halfway because Anthony got hurt. And then it was hurling and shouting from both sides.
I went to smash the girls (two of them) instead but had to stop because they didn't fight back but it was ok because they are the only two person of the whole production crew that got attacked by the smelly fish water (and it was smacked at their back in front of their dearest cam crews).
I used to like the both of them.
Anyway, I was blog hopping earlier on and realised when people blogged about their life, it might not be what it seem it is in real life.
Anyway, I am lazy to catch up with people or to even start a conversation with them because they showed the least interest in talking. I tried to and got disappointed by striking a convo with this friend who merely gave me a smirk which disappointed me (but I sort of see it coming).
Anyway, Momsie strike the lottery and Linda is going back Saudi tomorrow. Granny is also going back KL tomorrow. Bahhs. It will be at least 3 months before I can see Linda again.
DEFA is screwed because I am working and got no time to do the editing which is due on the 7th and HD lab closes at 6PM.
Ok. I am sleepy again.
(Mar 28, 2008)
I've got so much random thoughts to pen down but I don't know how or where should I start from.
(Mar 27, 2008)
warm up for fight scene.
ultimate magnum.
fira and steph chan.
the durian puzzle.
wrapping shot together with the beautiful sunset.
art dept still working even after the sun sets.
Director Boi got sabotaged.
Before Ivan shaved his hair.
Liu Qian Yi da ge with Justin.
with Nas and Fu Er.
end of pictorial post.
Finally I had some nice and long decent sleep albeit the phone calls kept coming in.
& it's camp tomorrow and I've yet to pack my bag.
byes and back on Monday.
(Mar 26, 2008)
I'm dying from all those shoots.
It's coming to an end this coming Sunday though.
Candice asked us to prepare for war on that day.
Last Sunday was Ah Bee's bday and those guys had fun.
It was dinner with Jacen, KT and Kolique after that.
Monday was spent in school watching P2 screening.
Decided to head down to shoot because Christine is going so YJ and I joined her.
Did nothing much. Just slacked around and went home around 1am.
Yesterday was school for Otto meeting.
Nice seeing them though not everyone.
But still yah.
Impromptu decision to head down to shoot again.
With Jacen, Xiang and YJ.
Everyone looked so tired and sleepy.
Lights are killer but when everything was set up, it looked damn nice.
Broadcasting cum radio session with April and Candice.
Towards the end, more than half of the production crew joined in.
We drew a BIG scandal map on the table.
And a handful of them kept mistaken Jolene for me or vice versa so she is my Dajie (on set) now.
I am still hesitating to head to Zouk later or not.
Afraid that because of our tiredness we might not really enjoy.
This Friday we're celebrating Momsie's advance birthday since Linda is going back Saudi soon.
So my Friday's packed with shoot in the morning till afternoon, then family bbq, then camp.
Camp is coming and I am looking forward to the nightwalk.
This year's nightwalk gonna be the scariest of all those beforehand.
Ber's shop is opening this Sunday too. Too bad I can't attend the opening ceremony because of camp. Would like to go down to visit them though. Hmm.
So much happened in just a short 3 days. I don't know why but I'm just glad to have friends like Sheena, KT and Jacen.
Did I mentioned I hurt my knee and new addition to my blueblack family.
Ok. Nice new long post.
It's coming to an end this coming Sunday though.
Candice asked us to prepare for war on that day.
Last Sunday was Ah Bee's bday and those guys had fun.
It was dinner with Jacen, KT and Kolique after that.
Monday was spent in school watching P2 screening.
Decided to head down to shoot because Christine is going so YJ and I joined her.
Did nothing much. Just slacked around and went home around 1am.
Yesterday was school for Otto meeting.
Nice seeing them though not everyone.
But still yah.
Impromptu decision to head down to shoot again.
With Jacen, Xiang and YJ.
Everyone looked so tired and sleepy.
Lights are killer but when everything was set up, it looked damn nice.
Broadcasting cum radio session with April and Candice.
Towards the end, more than half of the production crew joined in.
We drew a BIG scandal map on the table.
And a handful of them kept mistaken Jolene for me or vice versa so she is my Dajie (on set) now.
I am still hesitating to head to Zouk later or not.
Afraid that because of our tiredness we might not really enjoy.
This Friday we're celebrating Momsie's advance birthday since Linda is going back Saudi soon.
So my Friday's packed with shoot in the morning till afternoon, then family bbq, then camp.
Camp is coming and I am looking forward to the nightwalk.
This year's nightwalk gonna be the scariest of all those beforehand.
Ber's shop is opening this Sunday too. Too bad I can't attend the opening ceremony because of camp. Would like to go down to visit them though. Hmm.
So much happened in just a short 3 days. I don't know why but I'm just glad to have friends like Sheena, KT and Jacen.
Did I mentioned I hurt my knee and new addition to my blueblack family.
Ok. Nice new long post.
(Mar 22, 2008)
I swear I will sleep early the next time if I got shoot to go for the next day. And ya, I got shoot later on at 7am and it's now 12.36am already. So well, had fun today even though my shorts kept dropping and because Tom and I decided to try out whether or not does the Rain Dance work and so, it's proven. So it's ban from camp. LOL.
OK. talk cock sing song play mahjiong. I am going to sleep now so I will have more eyepower to use on my eyecandy tomorrow. NIGHTOS
OK. talk cock sing song play mahjiong. I am going to sleep now so I will have more eyepower to use on my eyecandy tomorrow. NIGHTOS
(Mar 21, 2008)
Must be one damn day yesterday because I wasted my time and money traveling from Tampines to Bedok then to Chai Chee then back to Bedok and then all the way to Haig Road and back to Bedok and then Tampines. Considering I had $7+ in my bus card when I first boarded the bus in Tampines and at the end of the day, it was -$0.34
It was humid outside, I was ranting to Jacen over the phone while searching for the black A0 paper that Steiner wanted but I guess I can only get it at Art Friend instead of Bedok. So met Moms for lunch then back home to sleep.
And I was woken up at least 6 times from phone calls. Seriously. Went back to school for Main Com meeting and then it was dinner at Subway with Jacen and Amos. Amos headed to ECP to meet up with the SUmates while Jacen and I headed to TM.
Bought the black paper that Steiner wanted and walked around, chat a little.
Call time at 7am later on, might not be able to meet up to buy present if it ends late. Tomorrow's Kelvin's chalet and I might have to go later because I've got shoot before that.
DOTC2's next week but I don't feel the excitement.
I'm finishing with Grey's Anatomy S2.
And I just found out there are 3 pairs of twins in MOI (current freshman). That's damn cool luh. Seriously.
Ok. It's like 1am now and I need to get ready by 6.15am. GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!
It was humid outside, I was ranting to Jacen over the phone while searching for the black A0 paper that Steiner wanted but I guess I can only get it at Art Friend instead of Bedok. So met Moms for lunch then back home to sleep.
And I was woken up at least 6 times from phone calls. Seriously. Went back to school for Main Com meeting and then it was dinner at Subway with Jacen and Amos. Amos headed to ECP to meet up with the SUmates while Jacen and I headed to TM.
Bought the black paper that Steiner wanted and walked around, chat a little.
Call time at 7am later on, might not be able to meet up to buy present if it ends late. Tomorrow's Kelvin's chalet and I might have to go later because I've got shoot before that.
DOTC2's next week but I don't feel the excitement.
I'm finishing with Grey's Anatomy S2.
And I just found out there are 3 pairs of twins in MOI (current freshman). That's damn cool luh. Seriously.
Ok. It's like 1am now and I need to get ready by 6.15am. GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!
(Mar 20, 2008)
When pain reached it's maximum, you won't feel it anymore.
(Mar 19, 2008)
Rule #1 is dang nice but because I was too sleepy, I fall asleep for like 5 minutes in the theater. What a shame. Sleeping while watching a film by Kelvin Tong. Seriously?! I like the twist in the end. Everyone should watch it because Shawn Yue is dang handsome and because Kelvin Tong is a Singaporean and in my own opinion, he is so much better than Jack Neo who is like so Singaporean till he got no creativity to actually copy some other people work and claimed it to be his own.
Submission is over for my group which means, END OF YEAR TWO! Time flies man. FYP next year. Tell me about it please, anyone.
Horoscope are so accurate everyone should believe in it.
There is a rashes outbreak over at Boi's shoot. Thankfully none of us (famous 5) got it. I wonder who got it.
Verlirth
cos even if u walk this world alone.. got at least 3 person will walk behind u
hahaha
Aww. So sweet.
Speaking of that, he smsed me while I was in the theater but I just deleted it straightaway without replying. I am not a rebound so please spare me from it. I don't just want to be someone there to kill your boredom. Oh well, it all ended. It's useless to even tell me you want to start all over again.
Time to sleep now because I am feeling sleepy again.
Submission is over for my group which means, END OF YEAR TWO! Time flies man. FYP next year. Tell me about it please, anyone.
Horoscope are so accurate everyone should believe in it.
There is a rashes outbreak over at Boi's shoot. Thankfully none of us (famous 5) got it. I wonder who got it.
Verlirth
cos even if u walk this world alone.. got at least 3 person will walk behind u
hahaha
Aww. So sweet.
Speaking of that, he smsed me while I was in the theater but I just deleted it straightaway without replying. I am not a rebound so please spare me from it. I don't just want to be someone there to kill your boredom. Oh well, it all ended. It's useless to even tell me you want to start all over again.
Time to sleep now because I am feeling sleepy again.
(Mar 18, 2008)
Maybe it's the distance and the disappointments like what Tommy said.
Sorry but I am not your rebound.
Sorry but I am not your rebound.
(Mar 17, 2008)
the mighty crane
Christine and Changboon are joining the shoot. And maybe Abby and Tom. So it's yayness!
I had 21.5 hours of sleep and I am still very tired. GOODNIGHT!
(Mar 16, 2008)
Two overnight shoots are enough to kill us all.
Embarrassed myself on the first night because I shouted when the camera is rolling.
And my hero is like sitting near me. Stupid Fiona.
And I was so tired that I forgot to check my phone and so I missed Ray's screening at Sinema but I got the short-film-going-to-be-a-featured-film DVD. Congrats to Ray.
Nothing much during the second night except the truck horn by itself for five times.
And scary/cool beng huat complained about art dept and Steiner.
And about ah-neh and Issac.
And Verm scalding her thumb.
Went back to the school location and have to wait for cam crew to finish their job before I can go home which is damn shitty because I was so tired and pimples were popping out and my hair was like SHIT. So we ended up playing and talking cock and watching them dance to environmental sound.
And my hero is damn fit please. Seriously.
And then Steiner have to send Avery, Johannan and Jackson home before I could go home.
And I swear I've got too much injuries on my legs to be counted. And I just noticed this blueblack bump on my bisep area (for I do not have any bisep) and it's damn painful when pressed.
It's 1.32pm and it's raining outside and I'm in my air conditioned room and I shall now go SLEEP and dream of my hero. GOOD NIGHTZZZZZZZZZZ (afternoon).
Embarrassed myself on the first night because I shouted when the camera is rolling.
And my hero is like sitting near me. Stupid Fiona.
And I was so tired that I forgot to check my phone and so I missed Ray's screening at Sinema but I got the short-film-going-to-be-a-featured-film DVD. Congrats to Ray.
Nothing much during the second night except the truck horn by itself for five times.
And scary/cool beng huat complained about art dept and Steiner.
And about ah-neh and Issac.
And Verm scalding her thumb.
Went back to the school location and have to wait for cam crew to finish their job before I can go home which is damn shitty because I was so tired and pimples were popping out and my hair was like SHIT. So we ended up playing and talking cock and watching them dance to environmental sound.
And my hero is damn fit please. Seriously.
And then Steiner have to send Avery, Johannan and Jackson home before I could go home.
And I swear I've got too much injuries on my legs to be counted. And I just noticed this blueblack bump on my bisep area (for I do not have any bisep) and it's damn painful when pressed.
It's 1.32pm and it's raining outside and I'm in my air conditioned room and I shall now go SLEEP and dream of my hero. GOOD NIGHTZZZZZZZZZZ (afternoon).
(Mar 13, 2008)
fever sucks. esp when you're having fever and gastric at the same time.
had a few antibiotics pills and now i feeling much better.
decided to go for a jog.
only 3 rounds which made it 3.6km.
must go run more often already.
interim two tomorrow.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE.
Pre Pro for FYP starts in 6days.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA LEE!
(yay. i asked Linda to buy Banana chocolate cake from Secret Recipe for her and so, YAYNESS!)
had a few antibiotics pills and now i feeling much better.
decided to go for a jog.
only 3 rounds which made it 3.6km.
must go run more often already.
interim two tomorrow.
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE.
Pre Pro for FYP starts in 6days.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CYNTHIA LEE!
(yay. i asked Linda to buy Banana chocolate cake from Secret Recipe for her and so, YAYNESS!)
()
i miss you and your cute smile, short legs and your bengish modified impreza.
(:
(:
()
last lap for the seniors. go go.
jacky's shoot later on.
boi's shoot tmr night.
overnight funeral shoot.
at jurong.
but nvm. we know why i am not sian (:
dinner just now was at 511.
with sheena jacen mark and wx.
yj pangseh us.
nice nice nice
but didn't really catch up with sheena.
kt not there also.
sheena sad because she cannot see kt.
haha.
i am helping linda to transfer her files from one hdd to the other.
8004 files. 4 hours. wish me luck. please.
jacky's shoot later on.
boi's shoot tmr night.
overnight funeral shoot.
at jurong.
but nvm. we know why i am not sian (:
dinner just now was at 511.
with sheena jacen mark and wx.
yj pangseh us.
nice nice nice
but didn't really catch up with sheena.
kt not there also.
sheena sad because she cannot see kt.
haha.
i am helping linda to transfer her files from one hdd to the other.
8004 files. 4 hours. wish me luck. please.
(Mar 12, 2008)
i could stare at your picture for the entire day
and yes, i stared at your picture for the entire day.
and yes, i stared at your picture for the entire day.
()
HAAHAA. THIS IS DAMN FUNNY.
(Mar 11, 2008)
dip show opening was boring except for ray's speech and the free phood.
screening this sat at old school for ray's. wonder we can make it or not.
gonna head down tomorrow to take a look at all the damn hot models.
and the seniors' work.
and boycotting has already started.
it was tcc madness after that with jacen mark wx yj verm and zhen.
first it was friendster, then live half life and then to pure singings.
i swear i love their company.
will wait for zhen to cut the video out.
i hope syafiq's feeling better though.
p2 zai. i love. we are almost done with editing.
left the audio design.
i love the teaser.
yumi's knee hurting. please heal.
i miss sheena. hopefully can meet up with her tomorrow.
and i still didn't go for run today.
and i am having gastric now.
this is damn shitty.
sian.
and today is still all about we-know-who.
and gastric sucks seriously.
and my head is spinning, idk why.
i seriously need to change my phone.
screening this sat at old school for ray's. wonder we can make it or not.
gonna head down tomorrow to take a look at all the damn hot models.
and the seniors' work.
and boycotting has already started.
it was tcc madness after that with jacen mark wx yj verm and zhen.
first it was friendster, then live half life and then to pure singings.
i swear i love their company.
will wait for zhen to cut the video out.
i hope syafiq's feeling better though.
p2 zai. i love. we are almost done with editing.
left the audio design.
i love the teaser.
yumi's knee hurting. please heal.
i miss sheena. hopefully can meet up with her tomorrow.
and i still didn't go for run today.
and i am having gastric now.
this is damn shitty.
sian.
and today is still all about we-know-who.
and gastric sucks seriously.
and my head is spinning, idk why.
i seriously need to change my phone.
()
I hope the guys are feeling better after talking to one another about crashing skies and song suanning. Had a HEAVY dinner with the guys before gossiping. I still can't stop my "he's so handsome". Oh well, he is handsome.
Alumni night later on. And Abby is transferring me her GA season 3 and 4 later! YES. I am a happy excited girl now. Grey's Anatomy is the sex seriously.
I haven't being running for close to 2 months alr. I need to go for one soon. Ok. Tonight, tonight I shall go. Meanwhile, I shall watch another ep of GA before going to sleep.
12.17AM. Goodnight world.
Alumni night later on. And Abby is transferring me her GA season 3 and 4 later! YES. I am a happy excited girl now. Grey's Anatomy is the sex seriously.
I haven't being running for close to 2 months alr. I need to go for one soon. Ok. Tonight, tonight I shall go. Meanwhile, I shall watch another ep of GA before going to sleep.
12.17AM. Goodnight world.
(Mar 10, 2008)
Yesterday once more please.
Jacky canceled his shoot today so I had the liberty of sleeping late today.
Planed to go to school but it's already 4pm now.
Idk why is the internet so slow. It used to load to much faster than this.
I want to eat Bak Kut Teh and Sambal Stingray.
I want Chomp Chomp.
And next Boi's shoot.
So we missed this year's CV camp. We said we would return but oh well, we did not manage to even be down for campfire. Pretty sad because we all got closer from CV camp 07.
I kinda like these few days. Hanging with the same people (Yumi calls it block buddies). So ya, Block Buddies, Mark, Jacen, WX, YJ, KT. I miss Sheena even though I hear her voice every now and then but I miss seeing her fatty meat. So quickie have another Kuay outing please.
I don't have the time to even watch a movie. Leap years, Orphanage, Rule No. 1, 10,000 BC.
All with good ratings and reviews. Damn sian seriously.
Ok. Time to bathe. My blueblack is beginning to hurt. Shit the tricycle.
Jacky canceled his shoot today so I had the liberty of sleeping late today.
Planed to go to school but it's already 4pm now.
Idk why is the internet so slow. It used to load to much faster than this.
I want to eat Bak Kut Teh and Sambal Stingray.
I want Chomp Chomp.
And next Boi's shoot.
So we missed this year's CV camp. We said we would return but oh well, we did not manage to even be down for campfire. Pretty sad because we all got closer from CV camp 07.
I kinda like these few days. Hanging with the same people (Yumi calls it block buddies). So ya, Block Buddies, Mark, Jacen, WX, YJ, KT. I miss Sheena even though I hear her voice every now and then but I miss seeing her fatty meat. So quickie have another Kuay outing please.
I don't have the time to even watch a movie. Leap years, Orphanage, Rule No. 1, 10,000 BC.
All with good ratings and reviews. Damn sian seriously.
Ok. Time to bathe. My blueblack is beginning to hurt. Shit the tricycle.
()
Yesterday's production for Boi's is tiring, irritating and embarrassed. Early in the morning I rode on the tricycle and fall into the drain resulting 2 big blue blacks on both my thighs. And a lot people were there to witnessed my fall.
Complained too much and too loudly. So a lot people heard. Haha. Damn embarrassed again.
Thankfully there's this new guy Issac *winks to someone* today. So workload decreased.
I am turning so vulgar these days. All thanks to WX.
After dinner with Mark, Verm and Issac (rest of art dept and some other guys came by later) Mark, Verm and I went down to PS to meet Jacen and KT. Chilled at Starbucks for awhile before accompanying the two just-finished-work guys for their late dinner. Mark and I accompanied KT till 12am before going home.
Bus ride home was chilly cold with this gay couple sitting behind us. And Mark got so many nice songs! "Stranger by day" hur.
Later on must go down for Jacky's production. I am very tired and thus, sleepy. BAHHHS
50% STALKED.
Complained too much and too loudly. So a lot people heard. Haha. Damn embarrassed again.
Thankfully there's this new guy Issac *winks to someone* today. So workload decreased.
I am turning so vulgar these days. All thanks to WX.
After dinner with Mark, Verm and Issac (rest of art dept and some other guys came by later) Mark, Verm and I went down to PS to meet Jacen and KT. Chilled at Starbucks for awhile before accompanying the two just-finished-work guys for their late dinner. Mark and I accompanied KT till 12am before going home.
Bus ride home was chilly cold with this gay couple sitting behind us. And Mark got so many nice songs! "Stranger by day" hur.
Later on must go down for Jacky's production. I am very tired and thus, sleepy. BAHHHS
50% STALKED.
(Mar 8, 2008)
LINDA LEE SHUE CHEN IS FINALLY BACK IN SINGAPORE.
but she went to Bessie's to play majiong alr. LOL
but she went to Bessie's to play majiong alr. LOL
(Mar 6, 2008)
1/2 hour lighting crash course please matt.
1/2 hour color crash course please tomu.
i swear i can only listen to instruction on set.
producer's not my cup of tea.
i salute april and all the other producers seriously.
imagine fyp. all the paper work. man. i am going to hire somebody to do it for me.
documentation sounds like a professional difficult job now.
another round of production later. kns. i swear lighting is the most difficult task on set.
ok. dai ying will die for post production.
and that reminds me of defa editing. LOLOL. good game loh. and then planned to do defa this friday but got EE and Boi's shoot. good game again loh.
nvm. at least i can get a little get away from school for this weekend and concentrate on my 2 bonus eyecandies.
lihat dirimu; semakin jauh mengayuh.
its either at matts place in his piano room or daiying brought it home
so syafiq actually stuffed a stack of paper in matt's piano. i think he thought the bur bur girls are going after them.
i need to sleep now. goodbyes.
1/2 hour color crash course please tomu.
i swear i can only listen to instruction on set.
producer's not my cup of tea.
i salute april and all the other producers seriously.
imagine fyp. all the paper work. man. i am going to hire somebody to do it for me.
documentation sounds like a professional difficult job now.
another round of production later. kns. i swear lighting is the most difficult task on set.
ok. dai ying will die for post production.
and that reminds me of defa editing. LOLOL. good game loh. and then planned to do defa this friday but got EE and Boi's shoot. good game again loh.
nvm. at least i can get a little get away from school for this weekend and concentrate on my 2 bonus eyecandies.
lihat dirimu; semakin jauh mengayuh.
its either at matts place in his piano room or daiying brought it home
so syafiq actually stuffed a stack of paper in matt's piano. i think he thought the bur bur girls are going after them.
i need to sleep now. goodbyes.
(Mar 4, 2008)
Martin is leaving tomorrow morning for his 1 month training in Australia. This sucks because I only got to know just a couple of hours ago.
Anyway, met up with Jacen, Mark, WX and YJ over at the coffee shop. Had some nice laughs. And I saw Mark scratching his groin area right in front of my eyes and he purposely did it the 2nd time just to irritate me. But they were nice. I mean, I know they were worried luh. Hurs.
P2 shoot (shoot what?) tomorrow. Hope everything goes well.
And good luck everyone who is still shooting, reshoot, going to shoot, finish shooting (:
I feel so much better today so don't worry people (:
And did I mentioned I had Jr Grip J photo in Moshy all along? Nobody stalks as good as me. But he looks funny in this picture.
YAY. Block 12 is reserved for The Holidays Film Makers. Let's make it happen. Laptops, DVDs, screen play, P2 Camera, experimental shots, end product. Yay!
P.S 重來好不好
Anyway, met up with Jacen, Mark, WX and YJ over at the coffee shop. Had some nice laughs. And I saw Mark scratching his groin area right in front of my eyes and he purposely did it the 2nd time just to irritate me. But they were nice. I mean, I know they were worried luh. Hurs.
P2 shoot (shoot what?) tomorrow. Hope everything goes well.
And good luck everyone who is still shooting, reshoot, going to shoot, finish shooting (:
I feel so much better today so don't worry people (:
And did I mentioned I had Jr Grip J photo in Moshy all along? Nobody stalks as good as me. But he looks funny in this picture.
YAY. Block 12 is reserved for The Holidays Film Makers. Let's make it happen. Laptops, DVDs, screen play, P2 Camera, experimental shots, end product. Yay!
P.S 重來好不好
(Mar 3, 2008)
i am sorry, i am guilty. please be ok, please be alright.
thank you carmen.
thank you ester.
i am not ok. i will live in guilt for the rest of my life.
whenever i close and open my eyes, i hope that what happened yesterday and today was nothing but just a dream but i always got snapped back to reality.
please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy. i know. please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy and so you will be blessed. please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy and you'll be protected. please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy and therefore you will live a long and healthy life. please be safe, please wake up. please. i pray.
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i must be positive, must be hopeful as i believe he's a nice guy, a good guy.
SICU - surgical intensive care unit. i never heard of it before till today. i was leading the way. i was afraid to face the family of the nice guy. but i want to be ahead of pops. to help him face whatever it is coming towards him. the dread faces of nice guy's family. i felt that drenched feeling in them. and the worse thing happened, what i've predicted came true. nice guy's sisters talked to me. tears wield up in their eyes. that sadness within that same pair of hopeful eyes. i don't know who to turn to. i bite my teeth. i swallowed hard. i spoke to carmen and i bite my teeth again. i spoke to syafiq. i was worrying for my p2. i bite my teeth. nice guy's brother spoke to us. haa. bedok neighbors to reunion in a hospital. ironic. i bite my teeth again, swallowed doubly hard. i wiped my tears away. i bite my teeth again. i went home. i can no longer bite my teeth anymore. i broke down. i spoke to ester. i bite my teeth. i took deep breathe. and now, i just want to be positive. but it's not easy. i looked at my phone. martin, i just stared. joseph ang. please give me some strength. somehow, i miss sk suddenly for i always call her when i have family problems. how shameful. to think of someone only when in need of help. this is long. my eyes are tired. i need a rest. but how can i rest peacefully. i closed my eyes and i saw him being knocked down again.
don't ask me why, don't ask me what happened. i just need words of encouragement, consolation.
for once, i felt that the whole world is ganging up against me.
for once, i just want to be loved.
thank you carmen.
thank you ester.
i am not ok. i will live in guilt for the rest of my life.
whenever i close and open my eyes, i hope that what happened yesterday and today was nothing but just a dream but i always got snapped back to reality.
please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy. i know. please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy and so you will be blessed. please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy and you'll be protected. please be ok, please be alright. you're a nice guy and therefore you will live a long and healthy life. please be safe, please wake up. please. i pray.
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i must be positive, must be hopeful as i believe he's a nice guy, a good guy.
SICU - surgical intensive care unit. i never heard of it before till today. i was leading the way. i was afraid to face the family of the nice guy. but i want to be ahead of pops. to help him face whatever it is coming towards him. the dread faces of nice guy's family. i felt that drenched feeling in them. and the worse thing happened, what i've predicted came true. nice guy's sisters talked to me. tears wield up in their eyes. that sadness within that same pair of hopeful eyes. i don't know who to turn to. i bite my teeth. i swallowed hard. i spoke to carmen and i bite my teeth again. i spoke to syafiq. i was worrying for my p2. i bite my teeth. nice guy's brother spoke to us. haa. bedok neighbors to reunion in a hospital. ironic. i bite my teeth again, swallowed doubly hard. i wiped my tears away. i bite my teeth again. i went home. i can no longer bite my teeth anymore. i broke down. i spoke to ester. i bite my teeth. i took deep breathe. and now, i just want to be positive. but it's not easy. i looked at my phone. martin, i just stared. joseph ang. please give me some strength. somehow, i miss sk suddenly for i always call her when i have family problems. how shameful. to think of someone only when in need of help. this is long. my eyes are tired. i need a rest. but how can i rest peacefully. i closed my eyes and i saw him being knocked down again.
don't ask me why, don't ask me what happened. i just need words of encouragement, consolation.
for once, i felt that the whole world is ganging up against me.
for once, i just want to be loved.
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I need to call Martin and meet up with him before he goes for his overseas training camp for a month which I totally forgot when the date is but I rmb it to be in March or April or May. Bahhs. I don't like the idea of him being a fighter plane pilot. Because that means he will spend a total of around 3 years overseas altogether. And that sucks because we seldom meet up even though we are in Singapore. Ok this sucks.
And I am drifting away from one of my very good friend. Is it that I am thinking too much or is it really happening. Not so fun to be a designer sometimes.
I'm so used to be alone now. I think sooner or later I will sit in the canteen to eat alone or tabao to eat at 70.
I am having a toothache now.
And the works of the Double J is still having the effect on me. LOLOLOL. Hua chi.
And the traumatising car accident is still flashing across my mind. I know who to call/inform when I'm going to die; Jacen. Because he said if I never reply him, he will call me.
Holiday film makers.
Lets make it happen.
Ok, I will make it happen.
A random post. I need to chill seriously.
Happy 19th birthday Sotong.
And I am drifting away from one of my very good friend. Is it that I am thinking too much or is it really happening. Not so fun to be a designer sometimes.
I'm so used to be alone now. I think sooner or later I will sit in the canteen to eat alone or tabao to eat at 70.
I am having a toothache now.
And the works of the Double J is still having the effect on me. LOLOLOL. Hua chi.
And the traumatising car accident is still flashing across my mind. I know who to call/inform when I'm going to die; Jacen. Because he said if I never reply him, he will call me.
Holiday film makers.
Lets make it happen.
Ok, I will make it happen.
A random post. I need to chill seriously.
Happy 19th birthday Sotong.
(Mar 2, 2008)
Got woken up at 12.30 today to accompany Pops and Bammy down for Mark's group shoot. Went down for awhile before coming home. Eyelids are so heavy but I couldn't sleep. Looks like everyone is shooting on weekends.
Did I mentioned Beng Huat loan out a Magnum for Boi's shoot yesterday? It's like damn cool luh seriously. Automatic crane/jip. I wonder how far/high can it max out. But damn cool luh. You can sit on it, play seesaw with it and er.. idk.
Ok. Napping time.
P/S watch out for Royston's new film premiering on August 9th (:
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Ok. So I woke up and went to fetch Bammy. As we happily sat in Pops car, he knocked down a cyclist. Bahhs. I got shocked seriously. Hope that he's not sustaining any internal injuries ):
Did I mentioned Beng Huat loan out a Magnum for Boi's shoot yesterday? It's like damn cool luh seriously. Automatic crane/jip. I wonder how far/high can it max out. But damn cool luh. You can sit on it, play seesaw with it and er.. idk.
Ok. Napping time.
P/S watch out for Royston's new film premiering on August 9th (:
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Ok. So I woke up and went to fetch Bammy. As we happily sat in Pops car, he knocked down a cyclist. Bahhs. I got shocked seriously. Hope that he's not sustaining any internal injuries ):
(Mar 1, 2008)
It's a legs literally broke day. Sweep court (again), scrubbed podium, cleaned classroom, clean toilet, set up canteen, set up stalls, clean props room, smell terpentine till the smell is stuck in my nose, 2 panadols, alot of water, smelly toilet and bahhs.
Got new eyecandy but I don't know his name but he is very attractive. No, Mark won't agree with me (for the 1000th) times. But still, Gaffer J is ultimate. And botak made me paiseh.
It was a lonesome day too. Only me from Famous Five is there (YJ left early). Thankfully Steiner did not throw me over to 2nd AD to be extras. If not I'll cry, slit my throat, hang myself, swallow bleach and set myself on fire.
last scene, last shot for the day YAY
Ok. Gaffer J so handsome HURHURHUR.
April define/describe this as HUA CHI.
(:
I can sleep with a smile alr.
And Mark wants to go Mayday concert. YESAH. $168 is very tempting.
Got new eyecandy but I don't know his name but he is very attractive. No, Mark won't agree with me (for the 1000th) times. But still, Gaffer J is ultimate. And botak made me paiseh.
It was a lonesome day too. Only me from Famous Five is there (YJ left early). Thankfully Steiner did not throw me over to 2nd AD to be extras. If not I'll cry, slit my throat, hang myself, swallow bleach and set myself on fire.
last scene, last shot for the day YAY
Ok. Gaffer J so handsome HURHURHUR.
April define/describe this as HUA CHI.
(:
I can sleep with a smile alr.
And Mark wants to go Mayday concert. YESAH. $168 is very tempting.