(Mar 5, 2007)
Today was horrendous. I'm like so tired to a point whereby I can even sleep on the wet grass field. We walk around and even hiked to the peak of mount faber. I'm glad every single one of us did it. It was steep, wet and muddy. I'm glad I didn't fall asleep halfway through the jungle trail. Tiring seh.
Thank you Brandon De Cruz for making me think so much. Yes. That topic did flashed through my mind once in a while but not at that bloody time when so many people is around. Embrassment is one thing, letting go off is another. That noisy guy said it right "Don't run away from reality". Aiyah. Whatever.
So we went for lunch after that. Hmm. Pratically there's like two cliques of instructors la. Might be that we are not that close yet and got nothing to say so our side decided to have lunch within ourselves than to join them instead.
Coasta sands again. Pratically doing the same thing we've being through. I miss my batch of instrcutors la. So many of them not joining for this upcoming camp. But well, there'll be Sha and Helmi so, not that bad.
Didn't have a chance to do river crossing due to the rain. So we did the briefing in the shelter. Basic knots and leashes again.
Dinner and slacked with KT and Chiang before cabbing home. I fall asleep IMMEDIATELY. Must be the migraine and sleepless nights. Sighs.
Woke up by Shai's phonecall. Damn emo la him. Sigh. Relationships. Hey. Is it the guys turn to rant and whine and complain and get all emo about relationship now. Bahhs. The world's changing uh.
*Entertaining that 1001 thoughts in my mind right now and the 0001 was for you.
I regretted those times when I missed the chanceS to talk to you.
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Skipped the mindmaps, straight to the proposal. It's not the correct procedures or process but well, time does not permit me to do the correct way. Or should I say the proper way? If I've set my hierachy of piorities right in the first place, I would not be in this situation whereby I do not have enough time for myself. Yes, myself to blame. But come to think of it, who in this age would not want to have fun and experiences? Stupid? Yes, fail your Year 1, repeat, all because of the few days of fun. No, you get the expriences where you can never find it anywhere else.
I just want to keep myself fully occupied so that I would not think anything about the negatives. Yes. I may be that noisy, ra-ra, out-going, cannot-shut-up girl on the outside but in the inside, a thousand and one thoughts have been running through my mind constantly. Even now, when I'm typing this entry, I'm entertaining some other funny thoughts.
Ok. I'm just crapping. Pardon me.
2.49AM now and I'm still doing my proposal. Migraine's killing me.
Thank you Brandon De Cruz for making me think so much. Yes. That topic did flashed through my mind once in a while but not at that bloody time when so many people is around. Embrassment is one thing, letting go off is another. That noisy guy said it right "Don't run away from reality". Aiyah. Whatever.
So we went for lunch after that. Hmm. Pratically there's like two cliques of instructors la. Might be that we are not that close yet and got nothing to say so our side decided to have lunch within ourselves than to join them instead.
Coasta sands again. Pratically doing the same thing we've being through. I miss my batch of instrcutors la. So many of them not joining for this upcoming camp. But well, there'll be Sha and Helmi so, not that bad.
Didn't have a chance to do river crossing due to the rain. So we did the briefing in the shelter. Basic knots and leashes again.
Dinner and slacked with KT and Chiang before cabbing home. I fall asleep IMMEDIATELY. Must be the migraine and sleepless nights. Sighs.
Woke up by Shai's phonecall. Damn emo la him. Sigh. Relationships. Hey. Is it the guys turn to rant and whine and complain and get all emo about relationship now. Bahhs. The world's changing uh.
*Entertaining that 1001 thoughts in my mind right now and the 0001 was for you.
I regretted those times when I missed the chanceS to talk to you.
-
Skipped the mindmaps, straight to the proposal. It's not the correct procedures or process but well, time does not permit me to do the correct way. Or should I say the proper way? If I've set my hierachy of piorities right in the first place, I would not be in this situation whereby I do not have enough time for myself. Yes, myself to blame. But come to think of it, who in this age would not want to have fun and experiences? Stupid? Yes, fail your Year 1, repeat, all because of the few days of fun. No, you get the expriences where you can never find it anywhere else.
I just want to keep myself fully occupied so that I would not think anything about the negatives. Yes. I may be that noisy, ra-ra, out-going, cannot-shut-up girl on the outside but in the inside, a thousand and one thoughts have been running through my mind constantly. Even now, when I'm typing this entry, I'm entertaining some other funny thoughts.
Ok. I'm just crapping. Pardon me.
2.49AM now and I'm still doing my proposal. Migraine's killing me.