(Dec 29, 2007)
Aska's songs made me emo.
I've got so much to handle and I don't think I can suppress this stress anymore.
I know it's not a lot on my side but different people got different stress level.
School from 3-9, APEL on 2 saturdays, DEFA reshoot, D'olympics on 3 saturdays, open house from 9-11th and Seniors FYP. (I've backed out from Matt's production)
THE WORST THING IS ALL THESE ARE HAPPENING ALL JANUARY.
I feel like a loser now because I want to give up everything. And because all my close friends are not in the same school, i can't find a comfort in school at all.
And fuck to those who thinks/said i got a lot of friends because I DON'T and even if I do, who cares about how many friends one have? dont come comfort me with "you got this and that ma" or "you always with them, where got no friends?"
i envy those who are in the same school as their close/best friends. very funny. a lot people made new best friends in their new school/environment but i'm still stuck in the past, in my own comfort zone.
i don't open up to people who i ain't close with unless i chose to do so. but even so, if you realised i only talk to you about school, gossip about friends, and joking with you, it means that i've not open up to you. so that means, i've never open up to anyone in design before.
i know there are alot of people who loves me in design but if there is someone else who need you, will you still be there for me?
I TOLD YOU ASKA'S SONGS MAKES PEOPLE EMO!
i miss joseph for the hundredth and one time. and i have to keep reminding myself he's no longer around.
fuck it.
I've got so much to handle and I don't think I can suppress this stress anymore.
I know it's not a lot on my side but different people got different stress level.
School from 3-9, APEL on 2 saturdays, DEFA reshoot, D'olympics on 3 saturdays, open house from 9-11th and Seniors FYP. (I've backed out from Matt's production)
THE WORST THING IS ALL THESE ARE HAPPENING ALL JANUARY.
I feel like a loser now because I want to give up everything. And because all my close friends are not in the same school, i can't find a comfort in school at all.
And fuck to those who thinks/said i got a lot of friends because I DON'T and even if I do, who cares about how many friends one have? dont come comfort me with "you got this and that ma" or "you always with them, where got no friends?"
i envy those who are in the same school as their close/best friends. very funny. a lot people made new best friends in their new school/environment but i'm still stuck in the past, in my own comfort zone.
i don't open up to people who i ain't close with unless i chose to do so. but even so, if you realised i only talk to you about school, gossip about friends, and joking with you, it means that i've not open up to you. so that means, i've never open up to anyone in design before.
i know there are alot of people who loves me in design but if there is someone else who need you, will you still be there for me?
I TOLD YOU ASKA'S SONGS MAKES PEOPLE EMO!
i miss joseph for the hundredth and one time. and i have to keep reminding myself he's no longer around.
fuck it.