(Aug 17, 2007)
I thought I could forgot all about it, all those that happened years ago but I guess it dosen't seem to be that way.
It's like, being engulfed by emptiness type of feeling. Like a hundred Dementors soaring through the sky making that sad and empty feeling. I dazed in the corner of nowhere and just simply stone. I wish I could answer why I was so quiet but I can't even answer myself why.
And somebody commented that I got a big mouth today infront of like, 10 people? And then I was reminded once and again to "don't tell her anymore things" and "please ask her dont tell anyone". Once is enough because I have already noted it down so I don't need to be reminded again and again. It's irritating.
And for those who really know me and for the benefit of those who don't and are reading this pathetic and boring blog of mine, don't ever backstab my friends behind their back even if it means doing it infront of me. Even the slightest comment will fuck me upside down.
Spent two hours for meeting and my submission is not even halfway done and tomorrow's submission. Thank god tomorrow's meeting has being postponed if not I can just die.
3-9pm class next block. Ok. I forsee I'll spend lesser and lesser time with my family then. SIAN.
I've been asking myself to set my piorities right. I don't know why but in the damn slack audio block, I'm even slackier. I go to class an hour late all the time and most of the time, off to do DSC stuffs. Sending emails after emails and hoping for them to reply which most of the time, only a handful replied which is very irritating.
I'm sorry to those I spoke to with a raised in my voice and with a tinge of irritation. No excuses from me for that but I was really pissed with different people asking me the same questions when all the details are stated in the pathetic email. But I realised if for me, I would ask those questions as well. Sian.
Anyway, can't wait for Ray's shoot to start on Saturday though it's a whole day thing.
I'm losing myself.
It's like, being engulfed by emptiness type of feeling. Like a hundred Dementors soaring through the sky making that sad and empty feeling. I dazed in the corner of nowhere and just simply stone. I wish I could answer why I was so quiet but I can't even answer myself why.
And somebody commented that I got a big mouth today infront of like, 10 people? And then I was reminded once and again to "don't tell her anymore things" and "please ask her dont tell anyone". Once is enough because I have already noted it down so I don't need to be reminded again and again. It's irritating.
And for those who really know me and for the benefit of those who don't and are reading this pathetic and boring blog of mine, don't ever backstab my friends behind their back even if it means doing it infront of me. Even the slightest comment will fuck me upside down.
Spent two hours for meeting and my submission is not even halfway done and tomorrow's submission. Thank god tomorrow's meeting has being postponed if not I can just die.
3-9pm class next block. Ok. I forsee I'll spend lesser and lesser time with my family then. SIAN.
I've been asking myself to set my piorities right. I don't know why but in the damn slack audio block, I'm even slackier. I go to class an hour late all the time and most of the time, off to do DSC stuffs. Sending emails after emails and hoping for them to reply which most of the time, only a handful replied which is very irritating.
I'm sorry to those I spoke to with a raised in my voice and with a tinge of irritation. No excuses from me for that but I was really pissed with different people asking me the same questions when all the details are stated in the pathetic email. But I realised if for me, I would ask those questions as well. Sian.
Anyway, can't wait for Ray's shoot to start on Saturday though it's a whole day thing.
I'm losing myself.