(Sep 4, 2006)
Joseph, I miss you. If only you did not do something this foolish. I love you
I dared not say I'm the one closest to him. I dared not say I know every single thing about him. But I dare say we're two mutual friends who put each other in the heart even though we seldom meet/chat.
4th Sept. Monday. Why? You told me you're were coming back in Dec. You told me we shall catch up during that time. You told me how much you miss me. You told me how much Ferero Rocher you gonna buy back for me.
Who forced you to do this? What exactly happened over there? Why you chose to do this? You made me felt so useless as your friend. You were such a loner since young. We made friends and you moved over to the West. We then stop contacting for a few years till one day we finally met up when we were in Sec1. You told me the truth. You were happy when you found your first boyfriend. You whined/cried to me how much you were afraid of breaking your parents heart. You told me about how sweet Jen was. You told me how I'm one resilient girl you've ever met. You told me not to stop smiling because I've got the most beautiful smiles (though I know it's not). You told me how you'll stand by me no matter how many friends of mine walked out of my life. But now, you can never be here for me anymore. You're still so far from me. In Brisbane, Aust. I wanna go over to have the last look at you. I wanna know what exactly happened! I wanna hear your voice again. I WANNA HEAR YOU WHINE AGAIN. I promised I'll not complain about how much you whine anymore. You still owe me 1000 boxes of Ferero Rocher. You still owe me a kiss. You still havent tell me how much you miss me. You told me you'll buy the biggest Toadstool for me. You told me you plant me a mushroom farm.
Why are we the closest after you left Singapore? Why didn't we spend more time in the last 12 years while you're in S'pore? Why is it only recently we started contacting each other? Why is it that being a gay could cause you so much troubles but you always knew that I'm here for you. I respect your decision. I knew why you could leave S'pore and go over to Aust with your fam yet moving to Brisbane alone when they're back. You want to prove to them that you're independent. You wanna have more time with Jen. But was it the correct decision that you've made? I never knew you could be this foolish. Am I wrong in supporting you being a gay and stay put in Brisbane? Being defiance is not your cup of tea. But your defiance in showing your parents how much you love Jen and the sacrifices you can do for him really made me admire you. But was my admiration all wrong?
Now, I miss you more.
On the other hand, Steve Irwin, the famous crocodile hunter is dead as well.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060904/ap_on_en_tv/obit_irwin
I can never see him on tv anymore. He's another man who I admire. I'll never forget him and his crew members. How they saved crocodiles or other animals and made Aust Zoo famous. I admire his courage. He died with his passion.
God bless Joseph.
God bless Steve.
I dared not say I'm the one closest to him. I dared not say I know every single thing about him. But I dare say we're two mutual friends who put each other in the heart even though we seldom meet/chat.
4th Sept. Monday. Why? You told me you're were coming back in Dec. You told me we shall catch up during that time. You told me how much you miss me. You told me how much Ferero Rocher you gonna buy back for me.
Who forced you to do this? What exactly happened over there? Why you chose to do this? You made me felt so useless as your friend. You were such a loner since young. We made friends and you moved over to the West. We then stop contacting for a few years till one day we finally met up when we were in Sec1. You told me the truth. You were happy when you found your first boyfriend. You whined/cried to me how much you were afraid of breaking your parents heart. You told me about how sweet Jen was. You told me how I'm one resilient girl you've ever met. You told me not to stop smiling because I've got the most beautiful smiles (though I know it's not). You told me how you'll stand by me no matter how many friends of mine walked out of my life. But now, you can never be here for me anymore. You're still so far from me. In Brisbane, Aust. I wanna go over to have the last look at you. I wanna know what exactly happened! I wanna hear your voice again. I WANNA HEAR YOU WHINE AGAIN. I promised I'll not complain about how much you whine anymore. You still owe me 1000 boxes of Ferero Rocher. You still owe me a kiss. You still havent tell me how much you miss me. You told me you'll buy the biggest Toadstool for me. You told me you plant me a mushroom farm.
Why are we the closest after you left Singapore? Why didn't we spend more time in the last 12 years while you're in S'pore? Why is it only recently we started contacting each other? Why is it that being a gay could cause you so much troubles but you always knew that I'm here for you. I respect your decision. I knew why you could leave S'pore and go over to Aust with your fam yet moving to Brisbane alone when they're back. You want to prove to them that you're independent. You wanna have more time with Jen. But was it the correct decision that you've made? I never knew you could be this foolish. Am I wrong in supporting you being a gay and stay put in Brisbane? Being defiance is not your cup of tea. But your defiance in showing your parents how much you love Jen and the sacrifices you can do for him really made me admire you. But was my admiration all wrong?
Now, I miss you more.
On the other hand, Steve Irwin, the famous crocodile hunter is dead as well.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060904/ap_on_en_tv/obit_irwin
I can never see him on tv anymore. He's another man who I admire. I'll never forget him and his crew members. How they saved crocodiles or other animals and made Aust Zoo famous. I admire his courage. He died with his passion.
God bless Joseph.
God bless Steve.