(Sep 26, 2006)
Ask yourself, who was the FIRST to be there when you needed someone to talk to?
Who was the first to listen to you rant when you had problems with you-know-who and your family?
Yes. I admit I treated you differently now but ask yourself, have you being spending enough time with us? Yumi might not take such stuffs to heart but I do.
Ask yourself again, are you REALLY that tired with IMF that you only had 4 to 5 hours of sleep? ARE YOU? SERIOUSLY? Or were you hanging out with you-know-who and friends till late? C'mon. Don't say till you're like so fucking noble.
If I didn't message you that day, would you even bother to explain?
But with that minimal of explanation, do you think it can solve the problem?
I might have said it's alright cus I thought I could fuck it and act as though nothing has happened but the thing is, I can't.
You don't seem to care at all- about the friendship.
So what if you talked to me? Does it make any difference?
And now you said I don't appreciate you.
Then those time in school and outside school are for nothing.
That time you called me in the middle of the night, the time you cried in school, the time you ranted to me thru msn, the time you had problems with you-know-who and smsed me, the time you were afraid that your parents might look for you in school and thus I went down to accompany you, the time you had to rush for submission and I helped you with abit of your work, the time during retreat and needed to study alone up on the 5th floor, who was there to accompany you? And that was the time you had some minor prob with you-know-who as well, the time you were bored and stuffs and whatever shit, WHO WAS THERE.
So don't say that I don't appreciate you.
If I hadn't, I won't be there for you. So don't say till like I wasn't there for you at all.
THANKS for being there for me through THAT period but you were telling me on that day that you were receiving hell- different level of hell from school work and then really talked to me a few days later and when I had problems with him.
Okies, thats not the point.
The point you wanted to get over to me was I'm petty and should grow up right? If you felt that I'm so childish, why bother to listen to my advices?
Let me tell you, I wasn't angry over the printing incident but all those following incidents.
You remembered to bake cookies for Yumi but you forgot to ask me over.
If you said you forgot about other thing, and thus you made plans with your other friends, I'll understand.
But this is so unlogical.
Do you know how fuckin pissed I was when you called me and said you baked cookies for EVERYONE? Meaning for Yumi as her Bday present. And ya. I was pissed cus you baked with your other friends.
LIKE, TELL ME, HOW IMPORTANT AM I AS A FRIEND TO YOU WHEN YOU DON'T SEEMED TO BOTHER.
I know how ass am I this few days. On fri and yesterday and on msn.
When something has happened, don't act as though nothin has happened.
By talking to me normally dosent help at all.
You're still my friend. No doubt about it. But being the same as the past or not, is another story.
I'll never give up on you or the friendship but I've given up on myself.
Not giving up on you because I know you and how you were there for me.
Not giving up on the friendship because I was part of the party who built it up.
But giving up on myself because I can't stop thinking about it and not forgiving you.
By apologising and giving minamal explaination is just the easy way out.
Let me stress on this, if I hadn't even bother/appreciate/care/whatevershit, will I even sms you on Fri?
Am I really that bad in this friendship?
Am I really such an ass?
Don't I feel sad?
In some posts back I said I'm not just feeling frustrated and angry but plain sadness.
We need to talk.
Who was the first to listen to you rant when you had problems with you-know-who and your family?
Yes. I admit I treated you differently now but ask yourself, have you being spending enough time with us? Yumi might not take such stuffs to heart but I do.
Ask yourself again, are you REALLY that tired with IMF that you only had 4 to 5 hours of sleep? ARE YOU? SERIOUSLY? Or were you hanging out with you-know-who and friends till late? C'mon. Don't say till you're like so fucking noble.
If I didn't message you that day, would you even bother to explain?
But with that minimal of explanation, do you think it can solve the problem?
I might have said it's alright cus I thought I could fuck it and act as though nothing has happened but the thing is, I can't.
You don't seem to care at all- about the friendship.
So what if you talked to me? Does it make any difference?
And now you said I don't appreciate you.
Then those time in school and outside school are for nothing.
That time you called me in the middle of the night, the time you cried in school, the time you ranted to me thru msn, the time you had problems with you-know-who and smsed me, the time you were afraid that your parents might look for you in school and thus I went down to accompany you, the time you had to rush for submission and I helped you with abit of your work, the time during retreat and needed to study alone up on the 5th floor, who was there to accompany you? And that was the time you had some minor prob with you-know-who as well, the time you were bored and stuffs and whatever shit, WHO WAS THERE.
So don't say that I don't appreciate you.
If I hadn't, I won't be there for you. So don't say till like I wasn't there for you at all.
THANKS for being there for me through THAT period but you were telling me on that day that you were receiving hell- different level of hell from school work and then really talked to me a few days later and when I had problems with him.
Okies, thats not the point.
The point you wanted to get over to me was I'm petty and should grow up right? If you felt that I'm so childish, why bother to listen to my advices?
Let me tell you, I wasn't angry over the printing incident but all those following incidents.
You remembered to bake cookies for Yumi but you forgot to ask me over.
If you said you forgot about other thing, and thus you made plans with your other friends, I'll understand.
But this is so unlogical.
Do you know how fuckin pissed I was when you called me and said you baked cookies for EVERYONE? Meaning for Yumi as her Bday present. And ya. I was pissed cus you baked with your other friends.
LIKE, TELL ME, HOW IMPORTANT AM I AS A FRIEND TO YOU WHEN YOU DON'T SEEMED TO BOTHER.
I know how ass am I this few days. On fri and yesterday and on msn.
When something has happened, don't act as though nothin has happened.
By talking to me normally dosent help at all.
You're still my friend. No doubt about it. But being the same as the past or not, is another story.
I'll never give up on you or the friendship but I've given up on myself.
Not giving up on you because I know you and how you were there for me.
Not giving up on the friendship because I was part of the party who built it up.
But giving up on myself because I can't stop thinking about it and not forgiving you.
By apologising and giving minamal explaination is just the easy way out.
Let me stress on this, if I hadn't even bother/appreciate/care/whatevershit, will I even sms you on Fri?
Am I really that bad in this friendship?
Am I really such an ass?
Don't I feel sad?
In some posts back I said I'm not just feeling frustrated and angry but plain sadness.
We need to talk.